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Life is bigger than the things you learn at school.
Life is bigger than the jacket you will be wearing.
Life is bigger than the problems that haunt you and leave you desperate.
Life is bigger than +4, -1, and 0.

Emotional marathon

After abandoning this blog for decades, I am back.
Not because it calls out to me. God, I even forgot that this exists.
I'm just upset right now.
Being upset turns me into a monster. I feel like punching something or someone. Even throwing myself from a one hundred-story building.
But blabbing in twitter doesn't sound good. And I don't have anybody to talk to. So here I am. Phrasing my anger into the world of the virtual.

I hate how things don't go smoothly as I expected. I hate how my face frowns even when I am in my most joyful mood. I hate having expectation of people treating me as good as I wish. I hate how my mom often doesn't keep her promise. I hate when I hear people laugh when I'm mad, as if they were laughing at my childish trait. I hate how I hate people. I hate being close to someone, because I know there will be one point in my life where she/he will disappoint me, it's always a circle I can not avoid. I hate how I always look like an ugly duckling in every goddamned photo ever taken in my life. I hate how I call myself solitaire just to deny the fact that I want attention. I hate how people hate me. I hate how people act nice in front of me as if I didn't know what kind of things they said behind. I hate how I overthink simple matter. I hate how I always consider people's opinions are important. I hate living up to expectation. I hate how people say I'm rude and bad fuck you you are nobody I have every right to be rude. I hate pushing people away, hah just joking. I love pushing people away, because I'm good at it. I hate feeling special. I hate feeling anything at all. If only they sold device to turn it off I would gladly buy them.

But mostly, I hate how I will regret posting this on the internet. How I quickly said I hate everything and shit.
P.S : I only need refreshment, sorry for making your eyes ache.

turn the music up

"The heart is beating so fast without the owner even knows why. Maybe some kind of invisible reaction just happened that only the universe knew"

It's me posting after a very long interval from the last post (like alwaysssss). And I'm on my brown oxford shoes now. I don't know. I sorta have a hobby of wearing my shoes in my room. OKAY. Forget it. This is stupid, really -_-

Just got my monthly Gogirl! magazine guysssss. It's summer already (not in Indonesia, I mean, becos we have summer everyday) so the articles, pictures, outfits are Summer related and they all amuse my eyes (huwat is this). The beginning of Summer also means....SALE EVERYWHERE. Booyah! This month feels like the second December. I feel like having Christmas already with sale everywhere.

KAY, enough with all the silly opening. I totally have no idea what of what I have just typed. And I'm totally clueless of how to make a good opening so just forgive meh.

This post shall be an opening mark to my promise which is NOT TO ABANDON THIS ABANDONED BLOG. Seriously. This may sound like a total nonsense but I'm going to try, you know. Because it's just sad to see this blog empty like this. So I'll try my best to write on this blog about anything possible that is worth-shared ^^

THE END.

(I'm not good at opening and closing a post, guys. Well, at everything basically, sooooo yeah)

Girls over boys? or vice versa?

(note before reading: this is just a RANDOM thought, really. never intend to hurt anyone's or certain people's feeling. freedom ftw!)

weird title, huh? I decided to blog a little. I didn't even know what to post at first, but a flash plus random thought suddenly came up to me. and taa-daa this is it. I'll just yap something about *drumroll, please* human relationship. (or so it's called)

to be precise, I'm not gonna talk about anything related to dating kind relationship. who am I kidding. me? talking about that? you ain't got shit. KAY BACK TO THE POINT. I was just wondering about which friendship is better, girl-and-girl-friendship or girl-and-boy-friendship.

As far as I've experienced, both of these have their own good and downside. Let me clear my points, fellow dudes and dudettes.

Girl-and-girl-friendship:

great thing about this is that you'll have great time of gossiping (yes, people, of course). they're more sensitive towards others. very caring and comforting. you could shop together like tomorrow's the end of the world, do girlie thingies (which I absolutely love!), trade compliments, style others, and stuffs.

bad thing about this is that IT'S GIRLS, people. we're sensitive bitches. we (yes, from the first person point of view) might not say a word about something but we could keep it in our heart and that could stink (what?). and of course, jealousy. girls are longing for rivalry. and everybody becomes the same strangers for us when it comes to this thing.

Girl-and-boy-relationship:

great thing about this is that we (at least myself) don't need to feel anxious about stuff we have just said just cause we think it might hurt their heart. that's how boys roll. they're simple. they are not really demanding I think.

bad thing about this is that you might be careful for not falling for your own boy-bestfriend. I'm serious on this because I personally don't believe about a very close relationship between these two opposite sexual without them, at least one of 'em, falling for another.

I myself think that I'd be really cool to have boy-bestfriends. Since it seems way, and I mean it, much simpler than girl-bestfriends. But I guess that might not be a perfect deal, huh? 'Cause nothing beats the excitement we scream from top of our lungs when we have something to gossip for; which is basically our own lives, people's lives, stupidity, and of course BOYS, d'oh.

And above all, underline this, that it all depends on the kind of people you're dealing with. Some girls are real angels but some others are serious bitches. Some boys are seriously cool lads but others are just pathetic losers. Just be aware, you guise. Befriend at your own risk!

Me? I'm just a pretty normal gal. But, to quote someone's twitter bio, that just depends on your definition of normal! Kudos.

Quickie Postie

Haloha. Let me have this clear. I solemnly swear that I have no intention to neglect and abandon this blog. But a friend of mine, called Laziness seduced me to. But then her frenemy called Self-consciousness knocked my head hard and reminded my why I blog at the first place.

Yiha! Sorry for being so lame. I just made that story up all of a sudden. To be true, I don't even know what to post here. I'm running out of ideas. Life has been a mess lately. My skirt got ripped when I tried to climb my house's gate and thank God nobody saw it because I pretty much looked like a mental thief with high idiocy level. *le sigh* But guess what? Now I'm so happy that it happened. Because remembering it is really amusing and make me think of how idiot I can be.

Enough with the silly story of mine. Let's get right to what I want to post (now I finally decide, eh?). I watched this movie about a week ago and I fell in love with its quirkiness, its awkwardness, and everything in it. Submarine, it is.

Noo, I don't wanna post any review about it. It'll end up as a spoiler anyway if I write it. This movie is a must if you're a fan of coming-of-age movie or quirky movie with witty dialogue or good soundtrack of just a fan of British movie (yeah, basically everything). You'd not regret it, I'll make sure 100%. It tells you life of a teenage boy with all puberty thingy which ALL OF US EVER EXPERIENCE.

Go now, like right now to the nearest download website or buy the dvd. (this is not a paid-post)

That's it.

Ciao.

How I act

Comeback with not so many to tell. Hehe, here here hear.
I got so fed up with life recently. Fyuh. So full of drama. Tired of watching, playing, being a part of drama.

Eum here I got a confession to make.
I may act childish. I may laugh a lot. I may smile. I may make jokes. I may stay calm.
Yes, I do it in front of, dear beloved friends.
Have you ever seen how I act in front of my family?
I act angry. I speak rarely. Sometimes I speak a lot, but get ignored. I laugh when it's necessary.
So it's pretty much the contrary, the opposite.

I may laugh a lot in the school, because I don't do it a lot at home.
I may act childish in front of you guys, because I can't.
I may speak a lot, complain a lot, because I don't really talk in the family.
Well, yeah, pretty much.

I really apologize for being a super bitch to you. I'm sorry. I'm just like this. Uncontrollable. Moody. Messed up.

I'm not saying that I'm not happy at home. I am. It's just the way I get it at home and school is different. Some of you may think that I cover my all gloomy and dark attitude at home by being so childish,noisy,and bla-bla whatever. Yeah, you could call me so. But it's the way I want to have fun with you guys, because I can't find any other ways.


That's it I guess. Weird, eh?
Tell you what, I'm gonna have malua in two weeks more, WHOA. And next week, I'll have the tests. And at the end of the month, I'll have the semester exams. SUPER WHOA MONTH YEA. Okay, gotta go do bio task yeah. Wish me luck :D

Semuanya terlihat biasa saja

everyone puts their best photo on facebook. whatever the poses. but we don't know what had happened when the day it was taken.

everyone tweeted about love. but we don't know what actually the person had been through with her/his love life.

everyone shouts the worst status, or the best status. but we don't know what they actually meant.

I put my best photo. just to give an impression. for what? I don't know. It doesn't really make sense. Everything doesn't make sense.

I tweet good things. just to get it RT-ed sometimes. for what? It doesn't make sense.

I don't know. I sometimes feel that we're too early to judge someone.
Just because her photos look so adorable, doesn't mean she has the perfect life.
Just because he smiles on the photo, doesn't mean he's always happy.
Just because it is taken at a great view, doesn't mean he enjoys it.

I don't know.

When we meet people, we don't know what has happened to them.
All things look the same.
People who just hurt someone. People who just got hurt. People who just had a fight with someone important in their lives. People who just broke up with boy/girlfriends. We don't care, or not sensitive enough to see it.

I don't know.
I don't even know what I'm posting. But this is it.

Semuanya terlihat biasa saja.

Quick update

Yeahss. Hello first. Arrrggghhh. You see the layout? The background? I wanna stab myself. *eh not really actually* I destroyed all things! The layout, the background. Now I'm back with the template blogspot gives. Whatever. Too lazy to fix things up *yeahssss, so me*

So guess what? I'm having holidays!! Yaay. You ask for what? For whatever's sake. I don't care as long as I have my holiday, my day off B) Naaah, the 12th grader will have their government or national examinations from March 18th - I don't when. And then here it comes... Easter! Tada...

Me not really excited about it tho. Not that kind of girl. Weird. For your information, I've never joined any Easter celebration like what other used to do when they were kids. You know, like going to church very early in the morning, finding the hidden eggs, and so on. I can't even name the others. Huf. I guess it's me.. Yeah. How bout ya? I know. I'm asking no one since no one reads this dead blog.

I'm really thinking of making new blog. Since this one becomes to look like trash day by day. Since I can't customize the background and the layout anymore. I don't freaking know. It said 'it's not applicable for this theme'. Ye so whatever.

Tomorrow is Sunday yeeaaah. Going to church as usual. But tomorrow is kinda different from other Sundays. I'm going to join a bazaar. It's actually the Teenagers of HKBP Tj. Sari. Do you know Parguru Malua? We're seeking for fund for out retreat. Yeahs, wish we luck.

Been watching this video of Girls' Generation dozens time. Love love! Btw Jessica is going to be 22nd this Monday on April 18th. Oh unnie, wae so pretty? ;)

Don't laugh

Setiap orang pasti punya mimpi kan. Hihi, termasuk aku jugalah pasti. Mentel mungkin kedengarannya ya. Hahhahaha. Tapi gak salah juga kalo punya angan-angan kan.

Nyambung ke post sebelumnya juga sih ini. Terakhir kan aku post kl aku abis nonton film Wall Street : Money Never Sleeps. Dan di film itu aku liat pasar saham atau apalah namanya. Keren. Aku pengen kerja kayak gini. Kalo yang udah nonton pasti ngertilah. Yang kerjanya jual-jual saham gitu. Hecticnya di kantor itu kalo harga saham naik-turun. Kerja di sana itu pasti selalu hectic dan gak mudah. Aku gak tahu aku nilai darimana, tapi yang pasti kesan yang kudapat dari film itu, kalo kerja 'begituan' keren.

Hwehe. Cetek kali ya. Pengen kerja kayak gitu hanya karena berembel-embel keren. Itupun keren dari sudut pandang kita aja. Tapi selain dari faktor itu, sebelumnya aku juga udah berniat kian pengen kerja di bidang ekonomi gitu. Pls!!! Don't!!! Laugh!!!! After!!! Reading!!! This!!! Ini semua terinspirasi dari Sri Mulyani. Oh yeah! That madam! That cool madam! Gila ya.

Beliau ditawarin jadi manajer di Bank Dunia. Apa gak mantap kali itu. Dia itu cewe, hm, dianggap lemah dan dari Indonesia. Negeri yang dianggap sebelah mata sama negeri-negeri seberang sana karena perkembangan negara kita yang jalan di tempat mulu. Dalam hati, kapanlah aku bisa kayak gitu... Ck. Mimpi mungkin ya... Tapi segala sesuatu yang ingin dicapai kan diawali dari mimpi dulu. Jadi sah la ya aku mimpi bisa kayak dia? Satu hal lain yang aku suka dari dia itu sikap dia yang gak bisa didikte dan rasa gak takutnya sama orang yang di atasnya selama dia bertindak benar. Whew. Meskipun yaah, banyak berita miring tentang Madam Sri Mulyani, tapi she's really still one of my ultimate idols.
Back to topic tentang mimpi dan bermimpi, aku sering mimpi (berharap sih sebenernya) punya wardrobe isinya baju-baju yang ada di tumblr ato weheartit.com. Yang punya tumblr ato yang sering buka weheartit.com pasti ngertilah. Yang ga punya ato ga pernah buka? Buka sekarang!! Ayo cepat!! :p Maksudnya yang in gitulah, yang lagi ngetrend. Apalagi vintage thingiesnya. Beuh. Tiap liat pasti pengen punya.

Kayak gambar yang di bawah ini. Cewe mana coba yang ga pengen punya barang-barang semacam ini di wardrobe-nya?
Yaaa... Namanya juga cewe. Pasti pengen selalu keliatan cantik, menarik kan. Cewe mana yang ga pengen keliatan cantik, apalagi di depan gebetan. Huahahaha. Begetar tangan ngetiknya. Tapi kalo aku sendiri sih, lebih ke kepuasan diri. Kalo liat barang-barang keren di wardrobe itu rasanya puas, bangga, apalah namanya. Tapi ya namanya mimpi, ya tetep mimpi kalo ga diwujudin pake tindakan.

Istilahnya kalo disingkat kaya gini:
Mimpi -> punya wardrobe isinya baju-baju kewl
Tindakan -> -
Kenyataan -> sampai jaman jebot juga ga pakal keisi tuh wardrobe sama baju-baju begituan.

Semua mimpi yang kita punya itu harus diwujudkan dengan tindakan. Kalo berharap sama keajaiban atau mengharap dari Tuhan aja tanpa bekerja kan sama aja bohong, ya gak? Apalagi kalo ngandalin magic. Hahahha. Ya apapun mimpi kita, itu pasti bakal bisa diwujudkan. Se-silly apapun. Se-bego apapun. Se-gila apapun. Karena hal-hal yang besar itu gak jarang berawal dari hal-hal yang dianggap orang silly, gila, gak penting, buang-buang waktu, dll.

Aku sendiri sih boleh dibilang agak munafik ngepost ginian. Karena aku sendiri termasuk kategori orang yang paling malas mewujudkan mimpi. Karena takut. Karena malu. Karena pengecut. Yeah, you name it. Tapi dengan ngepost ginian, paling ga ada cambuk ato motivasi untuk ngeraih kan? Ya berdoa ajalah untuk yang ngepost ini hmmm (berdoa dimulai.... berdoa selesai).

Wets, tindakan yang kita lakukan untuk meraih mimpi itu juga harus dibarengi dengan doa ke Tuhan juga tapinya. Tanpa Tuhan, semuanya menjadi mungkin. Bersama Tuhan, everything is possible! Yeah.

Gitu deh. Sesuai judul entri, don't laugh. I know this really sounds weird, but somehow I just want to share something. And wish me tons of luck, too. I made a list of 101 things I have to do before I get into 16. Yes, I'm turning sixteen this year on September 19th. Whew, I'm such an oldiiiiieeee X(

Wish us luck with our dreams. Keep pursuing them coz I know everyone can!! ;)

Yeah. Still haven't got this so cool bag. UUUURRRRGGGH. In desperate need of bag-like-this X(

First, first, first!!!! My deepest condolence goes for Japan. Oh my God, the tsunami is really horrible. It blows up almost anything. Wow. Japan is one of those developed countries and they are really aware of this issue, this kind of thing. They've built very strong building which is already prepared for this kind of thing, the earthquake thing. But still. The nature is really expressing its anger, maybe? Just by seeing the video on tv, I know that it is really horrible. Really.. I hope the best for all Japanese.

I have this one week holiday. Say yeay!!!! The twelfth graders are having their UAS. Hope the best for them. Hm, I'm so excited yet confused. What should I do in this holiday. I've thought many cool things to do, like baking, swimming, watching movies with friends, buying bags. And then reality strikes. I don't have that much time. Hah. Bimbel here, les there. My schedule and my friends' schedule crash, you know. We can't find the time to do all these cool things together. Beside, I think none of us want to 'sacrifice' our tight activities. Heh.

So I guess I'll just spend my time with laptop and dvds! I'm just going to be online for the whole week I guess. So booorrrriiiinnnnnnggggg. You know, I sometimes secretly wish I had that kind of life where I could hang out with my friends, holding shop bags, laughing so hard, taking pictures, whatever. You name them. That girly thing routines we often see in movies. It's just... cute. I don't know.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I've watched like so many movies recently. Yeah, that many until I have no feeling to collect any of those movies that I've listed. But....... Wall Street : Money Never Sleeps is a great one.

The tense feeling, the romantic, the drama, and the rare vocabularies there were kinda driving me mad. Hehe. The end is quite predictable, though. But the casts are totally cool. Michael Douglas, Carrey Mulligan, Shia LaBeouf are really awesome. I really love the couple. Perfect for each other. Heheee... And after watching the movie, I really feel like being economic is totally cool. I mean, the idea of growing career in economy is really into me. Whether to become a broker, an expert, an accountant or whatever, I really want to become one of those people. It's interesting what I watch in movie. The tense feeling people have in stock market. It's just... wow.

Yeah, I guess that's it.
"Money's the bitch that never sleeps – and she's jealous" - Wall Street 2"

Lesson learned.

Flat day. Kinda good actually. I behave like what a normal girl does. Well, the thing is I've made such a hard decision. I have to choose between attending so-called-family party or competing in a debate. I really love to join the competition. Since I found the last one is quite enjoyable. I really love to! But in other hand, I have to attend this party. Because I have to. I want to! Gah, life is all about choices. Why can't I divide my body into some parts so that I could attend both of this important events. Anyway I finally choose to attend the party on the 5th. This won't happen twice. Beside, if I attend these both, I can't focus on both of them. It will be a mess, maybe. Just hope for the best.

Wew, I really want to do some shopping. Whatever kind of shopping. I want to have new clothes, pants, shoes, nail-polish, dvds, blabla. I know this is being greedy not grateful or whatever. But these days are just so tiring. Exams are definitely over but tasks aren't. They are always everywhere. Teachers give us tons of presentation tasks. Hahhhh.

Sometimes I don't really like being myself. For I demand perfection too much. I want everything I do, I have, to be flawless, and exactly, yes exactly, as I want. This is being too arrogant right? I can't just help it. That's why sometimes I'd rather do a group task myself than have someone do it. Because I'm afraid it will not be as exactly as I want.
I remember thinking these lacey socks sucked a lot when I was in elementary school. My mom used to make me use this to church and to school (rarely of course, it's forbidden actually). I used to think that these things are awful and I was ashamed of wearing them.

And I remember thinking that this kind of collar was so uncool. Like it was so awful and I didn't want to have it.

But now? Hell. I want these items so much. I really love to have some lacey socks or this kind of cute collar. Why regrets always come late? I used to think that good things are just things which are becoming trend but it turned out to be wrong. I remember I didn't really like something vintage back then. But now? I'm so in love with all vintage pictures, especially that vintage fashion things. But I have no guts so wear them, even worse, I don't know where to buy that kind of things.

What I'm trying to say is, don't say that you dislike something so bad that you don't want to have or whatever the verb, in your life. Sometimes, things happen in the opposite way. I'm not saying that I never do this. I often. I can't seem to realize that this kind of thing happens in life. We don't always get what we want. God gives what we really need. And sometimes, what we think is good for us, is not. And I'm telling this as well, more like a thought, some kind of sharing to you who read this, and to me too. Please don't let the regrets come to us. It always sucks, believe me.

First day first

The first day of March! Ah, quite sad, disappointing. I even cried today. I cried so hard yet so quiet until my eyes got swollen. They were really red and it was even hard to blink. But now they are quite okay.

Today is also my first day of PMS this month. That's why I'm being soooo emotional. I felt broken.
All I can do is just disappointing, making people around me feel sad. Why can't I make someone be happy? Am I that bad? I'm just never good enough for anyone.

I can't go on this month like this. And I don't want the rest of the days in this month to be like this, all gloomy and sad!! I gotta wake up, cheer myself up. I have to survive through this month.

Today is Justin Beaver's birthday. Yeah, that other girls' idol. Tell him I say happy birthday. He must be feeling so glad to have me congratulate him. It's an honor you know. wkwkwk

AND FYI, MY Ron's having his birthday today! Happy birthday dear!! Wish you the very best. Keep being funny ;;;)

Hm, back to topic. I'm gonna be strong and I promise (really, I mean this) to fill this blog like every week. Yes, this blog has to live up and rise. Ha. Whatever. Guess this is it. Good bye!!

Lame.

Yellow.
It's too damn late to say this. I finally changed my header or banner or whatever!!!!
Hahahaha.... Better than never right? But something went really error. I can't change my background argh urgh. Never mind thooo.

It's 2 days more to March. Kinda excited. My amigo is going to launch (eh?) her new house on March 5th. Boo-yaaahhh. It's going to be huge I guess hihi. And it's gonna be fun!! Since my old classmates are all invited. Hehe some meet up again with my beloved buddiesss<3 Seriously I can't wait... I hope all the best for you March. Really. I don't wanna be cashless. Pst I wanna buy some new clothes. No time in this hectic February. No one to accompany me, too. Arh, where are my friends when I need them? :-p


By the way I've watched the Black Swan. Natalie Portman is truly an actress. Oh my God!!!! Nina Sayers awww. You got me eeee during the movie. She is truly brilliant, excellent. Exceptional, man. And her killer body. Aw my. I want that. One of the greatest actress now. Yeah she is. She really deserves an Academy Award for this. She's pregnant now by the way. All the best for the baby..

Exams r ova. Yay!!!! But I'm not really free at all. There are way too many tasks. Presentations, discussions, whatever.... Is it so hard to just let us be free for a while, teachers? Jeez, I can't watch the dvds then. I should be doing my task now actually. But internet seduces me.. Ah... That's the naughty of you internet. (yuck)

I'm looking forward to having this kind one bag, really. A mulberry. Me wantey so much. I just don't know where to find it here, in Medan. Anyone (like there is anyone reading my blog, really?) who knows please let me know? He. Sorry for bad grammar.

I'm really into seeing vintage stuffs. Feels like I wanna have all of them. Like these pictures below. So cute I could dieeeeeeeeee *o*

my fave one. A lace dress. I already have one by the way. Em maybe two. They're white and cream :-p hehe but this pastel pink one is the most wanted. And the shoes will make a good combination if I dare to say. hehehe

I want a single classic watch like this one. Ugh. Isn't it so cute? Right? Right? Arghhh.

Love. Whatever. You define it yourself.

New things!

Hey'all!!!!!!! Howz life eh?
It's 2011 already hehe. Duh, I'm so not up-to-date. Actually I have lots of free time to update my blog. But as usual, laziness always wins. So on this day, on this Chinese New Year, I'm gonna say :
"Happy Chinese New Year for everyone who celebrate!!"

I don't know what people usually do on this day. I'm not a Chinese. Beside, believe me, I never attend any of Chinese NY Celebrations. Yeah, poor thing. Oh, one thing I know is that people usually give angpao... Hehe. But I rarely get, tho. Since I got not so many relatives nor friends who are Chinese.

Have you realized ehhh? I got new name and new url for my blog. Hehehe. I feel pretty bored with the last one. Beside, the previous name I had was a little weird and meaningless. But now? I have Pink Pacific as the name and floralnerdencyclopedia as url.

Pink Pacific is not a new thing. It was my previous url. Why Pink Pacific? Because I love hearing it and it has a special meaning, well not really special actually. Pink is my most favorite color and Pacific is the name of the ocean. Ocean is a really large, big thing right?! And this blog, well I hope, will be a big thing, too. This blog has big meaning for me, even if not for now at least for whenever it will be :p So I combine these two words and get Pink Pacific :]

floralnerdencyclopedia? Hm, actually in the first time, I wanted a whatanerdwants url. But unfortunately it is taken by somebody else. Feel a lil disappointed tho but it's fine. Then I try to search a new url that has somewhat relation to nerd thing. First, it's because I'm a nerd, I just realized it and I'm proud of being a nerd. Second, a quote "Nerds kiss the best" from a novel recently comes up to my mind. Mind me, I'm not a pervert. It's just like, ehm, I'm feeling like nerd isn't always someone who's only good in school, interested in books, or other things whatsoever. They can do best at other things, too. Well in that proverb it's kissing :p hehe whatever laaaah. Back to url, I always love flower. The thought of flower always calms me down. I love floral pattern, too. And I'd love to combine the words.... floralnerd is a name I want to be described ;p And encyclopedia? Well, it's a book that almost tells everything right? And this blog will tell everything about me, maybe? Hehe I'm not that sure.

So here it is. Pink Pacific and floralnerdencyclopedia. The only thing that bothers me about the url is, my biology tentor told us that flower is somehow the name of plants' genital. Ugh, but just don't think about this that way okay? And one thing! I'd really love to change the banner and the background as well. But this may take a long time since I'm really lazy to make such things. Hopefully I can do this during this CNY's holidays (I've got only 2 day holidays ugh).

I've been really craving for a leather jacket!!! I read Go!Girl's January issue and saw a leather jacket combined with a white tee and maxi floral skirt. And it goes really lovely. On another entry, I'll post the picture ok? I told my mom I wanted one but she told me I'm not going to have any since real leather jacket is very expensive and she told me that the synthetic one is smelly =0=. After a few days, I figured out that my dad just bought a leather jacket. And as usual, as a normal woman who likes to gossip, my mom told my dad about me wanting one. And he teased me about that hellyeeeeah.

(this is not the picture)

Please anyone? Buy me one? u.u

Lately I've found it enjoyable seeing runway photos (or whatever the names are). These are one of my fave one ehhe.
I really don't know from what collection these are. Since I found them in a social-bookmark site, weheartit.com. Credit for wonderful designer(s) who've made these incredible dresses. I wish I had one!

-dina

I'm not gonna miss you.

Yellow. Nitey fellas. It's like 9 p.m-ish according to my laptop. Well, in a good mood to write. After I saw Diana Rikasari's latest post abt what have happened to her during this year, I'm inspired to write that kind of post, too.

Hm, okay get me started. I can't really remember all, but I'll try to do my best :)

- January : *pass, totally forget*

- February : *totally forget, crap!*

- March : I had my UN in this month. I was really scared, sad, excited, but mostly scared. So many craps happened in this month. Like, I had a fight with some of my classmate because I really hate them who used 'joki' for this UN. HAHH.

- April : this was a hectic month, too. I had my UAS, wow!!! Even harder than UN. But this wasn't very long, just about a week or so. Because I had my very very long holidays..... Ugh. But we held a farewell party, here. Not a really good one, thought. Mostly boring, but cool!

- May : our very own farewell party, in Stefany's house. It was great. Hahaha, watching Harry Potter until we fell asleep. And the manggang2 part was greawt, even though not as spectacular as I thought before :p

- June : I passed the UN!!! If I'm not mistaken, the test for SMA St. Thomas 1 was held in this month. Kinda nervous, but not at all actually. Hehe.

- July : I'm in. I'm officially a senior high school student. I'm a SMA St. Thomas 1 student. And my shs story begins here.... Germany only got the 3rd on World Cup.. :(

- August : It was the beginning of all, the friendship with X-A. Start from the celebration of August 17th and so on and on an on.... And we had a surprise birthday party for Patricia :D

- September : Hey its my birthday month. Nothing special, really. A disappointing month maybe. My parents were not there on my birthday. And well I was fine with it.

- October : X-A and X-D went to Karangsari for retreat. It was great. But the outbound was kind of disappointing. Hahhh. How I wish we weren't the first to go..

- November : month of examinations. As usual, hectic, stressful, full of tense, and the competition in X-A was so tight. I barely even breathed :p

- December : Christmas month! Holiday month! Hell month, too! We'd get our result, too. And I've just got mine on the 22nd. I was on the 2nd. Not disappointing, but well, I wish I could do more than that. And it's Christmas finally, not really a great one.

Okay. So that's all I can imagine. In this year, I've been living such a complicated journey of life, maybe, I dare to say so. Fighting with parents, friends, having enemies. Well, it's so teensy right? Lately I've been feeling unfine, especially with someone I really feel close with. I feel like she's ignoring me... I apologize for all faults I've been doing for you, and for all people I know. I've been such an arrogant girl to everyone.

Thank you so much for friends in X-A. You're all great, except that we're not so close yet. Hm. I guess it's just me that can't grow close to someone so fast. Thank you for all unos, the laugh, the movies, and so on and on.

Thank you so much for theDUWAS. I miss you all a lot. I wanna meet you all, yeah all.

Thank you, parents. We're fighting now. And it's just hard to say anything here. You're both sometimes annoying, and I hate you. But I'm kinda sure, I will forget this the next morning. Hah..

Thank you for filling my days in 2010, for cheering me, for laughing with me, for all the words we've told. I'm not gonna miss this year, I think. This year is a mess...............................

But in this year, I've already learned many things. I've been starting to love many things. I love Mesut Ozil, I love tumblr, I love we-heart-it, I love Ron/Hermione, I love Ronald Weasley, I love Rupert Grint and so on!!!

Now, welcome 2011. I've been waiting to enjoy you! Be nice to me. Be my year. Be my year of happiness.

:)


With a bunch of Liquid Luck,




Dina.

This... is... schweet :')

“Hang on a moment!” said Ron sharply. “We’ve forgotten someone!”
“Who?” asked Hermione.
“The house-elves, they’ll all be down in the kitchen, won’t they?”
“You mean we ought to get them fighting?” asked Harry.
“No,” said Ron seriously, “I mean we should tell them to get out. We don’t want anymore Dobbies, do we? We can’t order them to die for us—”
There was a clatter as the basilisk fangs cascaded out of Hermione’s arms. Running at Ron, she flung them around his neck and kissed him full on the mouth. Ron threw away the fangs and broomstick he was holding and responded with such enthusiasm that he lifted Hermione off her feet.
“Is this the moment?” Harry asked weakly, and when nothing happened except that Ron and Hermione gripped each other still more firmly and swayed on the spot, he raised his voice. “Oi! There’s a war going on here!”
Ron and Hermione broke apart, their arms still around each other.
“I know, mate,” said Ron, who looked as though he had recently been hit on the back of the head with a Bludger, “so it’s now or never, isn’t it?”
“Never mind that, what about the Horcrux?” Harry shouted. “D’you think you could just – just hold it in until we’ve got the diadem?”
“Yeah – right – sorry – “ said Ron, and he and Hermione set about gathering up fangs, both pink in the face.

[Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Chapter 31, The Battle of Hogwarts]

Omaigawwwdddddd. I'm totally, entirely, extremely, in love with Ron and Hermione. Awch, this couple has driven me crazy lately. Yeah I'm so lame. And pity me, I should've realized sooner that this couple is really meant to be and worth-shipping <3 fufufufufufu. They're both gorgeous and the actors that play the characters are really cute!!!!!!! I mean, look at Emma Watson and Rupert Grint.

Emma is really really really beautiful. She's like a goddess. She's really charming and I'm sure all girls, all boys think that she's pretty. And Rupert?! Awwww, that dude. He's really comical. Hahahahaha. He's really funny. He's full of expression. I always love the way he speaks something. Cool and attractive. When they were kids, I admit that Daniel was way cuter than Rupert. But now?!?!?! Hello!!!! Rupert is totally more awesome, more charming, more more more and moreeee attractive than Daniel. Well, we're speaking about taste also here. Hehe. Rupert's sure hot, hot, and hot. Gawd, I'm running outta words here-_-

Okay, so the point is, I totally ship R/Hr couple. Sweet, cute, always bickering but they never hate each other;) It's actually my point here. They show their love by bickering, almost every time.

Yeap, I know you know that I was not really into Harry Potter's stuffs. I love Harry Potter, the movies. Well I basically love all movies hahahaha. But because of this gorgeous couple, I begin to like the books. I'm planning to buy all the series. I really wanna know their relation since the first year of their Hogwart's school. Because the books and the movies sometime tell different story right?

Well well well. Now, I'm sorry for being such a bad bad baddddd blogger. It's been centuries since my last post. T_T I've already got my first semester result. Not bad, eh? Got the second rank. Well, this is the first one I got the second. Tee-hee. I'm just gonna try harder on the next semester. But hell who cares. Let's just try our best. Phew.

Guys it's December 25th now. Don't you feel the joy of Christmas? I can feel it now, hehe, not really actually. Christmas is just the same all years. Yeeeeeaa dude all yearss. Now, I'm gonna end this entry. Back to reading some fun facts about R/Hr or back to twittering!!


CATCH YA LATER,



Love,
Dina;)

Exams overrrrrrr

OI! Goshhhh, it's forever since my last post. You know I was really busy with exam thingy and now all are finished. Can't be any happier you know. And my exam went really bad goshhh I'm kinda well-prepared but some of the teachers were being such an ass. They gave us really short time to do all the loads of questions. Phew. And that's bout it.

Now, I've watched two saga these recent weeks. They're Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows and Narnia: the Voyage of the Dawn Treader. Both of em were awesome.

I love Hp7 because it was really funny and the relationship between Ron and Hermione grew bigger. Teehe and I'm so in love with this couple. They're so frigging adorable, so pretty :3. The movie was so funny and well so awesome. Thumbs up. This series is better than the previous Harry Potter.

And I really like Narnia3. Edmund was so handsome and freaking adorable there!!!! Me and Patricia kept telling Laura that he is our husband HAHAHAHA. We freaked out there. And that was really happy.

OKAY. ENOUGH BABBLING. NOW LET'S PRAY FOR MY EXAMINATIONS RESULT!!! Hope that I will get good and score and no remedial wait me okay. Amin.

Disenchanted

Well I was there on the day
they sold the cause for the
queen
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen
I hate the ending myself
But it started with an alright scene

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "You won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night
long? (all night long, night
long)
And will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learned a goddamned thing

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night
long? (all night long, all
night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone
Because you never learned a god damned thing

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

So go, go away, just go, run away.
Now where did you run to?
And where did you hide?
Go find another way
Price you pay

Woah oh...
Woah oh...
Woah oh...
Woah oh, woah oh, woah oh, woah oh...

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you, come on

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

At all x4

I've had enough, bitches. I'm intangible. Don't try to teach or preach me what to do. Am not gonna listen to your words, biiiitccchhheeesss. xoxo

Unyu post

I saw these photos and wondered why...... Babies are always so cuteee <3
Aw, I want one of em right now.... They're so unyu-unyuuu..


Another unyu detected from Vanilla Twilight - Owl City. The lyrics are touching. I really want someone to sing this for me.. Ah impossible for now... But still, believe in the impossible :P

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I’ll doze off safe and soundly,
But I’ll miss your arms around me
I’ll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I’ll watch the night turn light blue,
But it’s not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn’t so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I’ll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven’t slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I’ll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don’t feel so alone.
I don’t feel so alone.
I don’t feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I’ll think of you… tonight.
I’ll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I’ll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I’ll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won’t forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I’d whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

Random quote came :

"You don't believe bad people exist until you become of one them"

Hell love smells bad.

"I want to be forever in your arms. But I realize it's quite impossible. Why? 1. Forever never exists. 2. You arms aren't big enough"

I make a promise to myself. I'll try as hard as I can to ignore your appearance. Well, it's not that you want to get closer to me, I know it's not gonna happen. But it's just simply because I can't keep my body not to be closer to you.

Get it huh?

It's actually really simple. I ignore your appearance because I really wanna be with you. Ignoring you maybe can help me to forget you. AHHHHH. Why is it so hard to tell what's actually been in my mind. Forget it!!!!!! I'm just simply idiot.