Girls over boys? or vice versa?

(note before reading: this is just a RANDOM thought, really. never intend to hurt anyone's or certain people's feeling. freedom ftw!)

weird title, huh? I decided to blog a little. I didn't even know what to post at first, but a flash plus random thought suddenly came up to me. and taa-daa this is it. I'll just yap something about *drumroll, please* human relationship. (or so it's called)

to be precise, I'm not gonna talk about anything related to dating kind relationship. who am I kidding. me? talking about that? you ain't got shit. KAY BACK TO THE POINT. I was just wondering about which friendship is better, girl-and-girl-friendship or girl-and-boy-friendship.

As far as I've experienced, both of these have their own good and downside. Let me clear my points, fellow dudes and dudettes.

Girl-and-girl-friendship:

great thing about this is that you'll have great time of gossiping (yes, people, of course). they're more sensitive towards others. very caring and comforting. you could shop together like tomorrow's the end of the world, do girlie thingies (which I absolutely love!), trade compliments, style others, and stuffs.

bad thing about this is that IT'S GIRLS, people. we're sensitive bitches. we (yes, from the first person point of view) might not say a word about something but we could keep it in our heart and that could stink (what?). and of course, jealousy. girls are longing for rivalry. and everybody becomes the same strangers for us when it comes to this thing.

Girl-and-boy-relationship:

great thing about this is that we (at least myself) don't need to feel anxious about stuff we have just said just cause we think it might hurt their heart. that's how boys roll. they're simple. they are not really demanding I think.

bad thing about this is that you might be careful for not falling for your own boy-bestfriend. I'm serious on this because I personally don't believe about a very close relationship between these two opposite sexual without them, at least one of 'em, falling for another.

I myself think that I'd be really cool to have boy-bestfriends. Since it seems way, and I mean it, much simpler than girl-bestfriends. But I guess that might not be a perfect deal, huh? 'Cause nothing beats the excitement we scream from top of our lungs when we have something to gossip for; which is basically our own lives, people's lives, stupidity, and of course BOYS, d'oh.

And above all, underline this, that it all depends on the kind of people you're dealing with. Some girls are real angels but some others are serious bitches. Some boys are seriously cool lads but others are just pathetic losers. Just be aware, you guise. Befriend at your own risk!

Me? I'm just a pretty normal gal. But, to quote someone's twitter bio, that just depends on your definition of normal! Kudos.

Semuanya terlihat biasa saja

everyone puts their best photo on facebook. whatever the poses. but we don't know what had happened when the day it was taken.

everyone tweeted about love. but we don't know what actually the person had been through with her/his love life.

everyone shouts the worst status, or the best status. but we don't know what they actually meant.

I put my best photo. just to give an impression. for what? I don't know. It doesn't really make sense. Everything doesn't make sense.

I tweet good things. just to get it RT-ed sometimes. for what? It doesn't make sense.

I don't know. I sometimes feel that we're too early to judge someone.
Just because her photos look so adorable, doesn't mean she has the perfect life.
Just because he smiles on the photo, doesn't mean he's always happy.
Just because it is taken at a great view, doesn't mean he enjoys it.

I don't know.

When we meet people, we don't know what has happened to them.
All things look the same.
People who just hurt someone. People who just got hurt. People who just had a fight with someone important in their lives. People who just broke up with boy/girlfriends. We don't care, or not sensitive enough to see it.

I don't know.
I don't even know what I'm posting. But this is it.

Semuanya terlihat biasa saja.

Don't laugh

Setiap orang pasti punya mimpi kan. Hihi, termasuk aku jugalah pasti. Mentel mungkin kedengarannya ya. Hahhahaha. Tapi gak salah juga kalo punya angan-angan kan.

Nyambung ke post sebelumnya juga sih ini. Terakhir kan aku post kl aku abis nonton film Wall Street : Money Never Sleeps. Dan di film itu aku liat pasar saham atau apalah namanya. Keren. Aku pengen kerja kayak gini. Kalo yang udah nonton pasti ngertilah. Yang kerjanya jual-jual saham gitu. Hecticnya di kantor itu kalo harga saham naik-turun. Kerja di sana itu pasti selalu hectic dan gak mudah. Aku gak tahu aku nilai darimana, tapi yang pasti kesan yang kudapat dari film itu, kalo kerja 'begituan' keren.

Hwehe. Cetek kali ya. Pengen kerja kayak gitu hanya karena berembel-embel keren. Itupun keren dari sudut pandang kita aja. Tapi selain dari faktor itu, sebelumnya aku juga udah berniat kian pengen kerja di bidang ekonomi gitu. Pls!!! Don't!!! Laugh!!!! After!!! Reading!!! This!!! Ini semua terinspirasi dari Sri Mulyani. Oh yeah! That madam! That cool madam! Gila ya.

Beliau ditawarin jadi manajer di Bank Dunia. Apa gak mantap kali itu. Dia itu cewe, hm, dianggap lemah dan dari Indonesia. Negeri yang dianggap sebelah mata sama negeri-negeri seberang sana karena perkembangan negara kita yang jalan di tempat mulu. Dalam hati, kapanlah aku bisa kayak gitu... Ck. Mimpi mungkin ya... Tapi segala sesuatu yang ingin dicapai kan diawali dari mimpi dulu. Jadi sah la ya aku mimpi bisa kayak dia? Satu hal lain yang aku suka dari dia itu sikap dia yang gak bisa didikte dan rasa gak takutnya sama orang yang di atasnya selama dia bertindak benar. Whew. Meskipun yaah, banyak berita miring tentang Madam Sri Mulyani, tapi she's really still one of my ultimate idols.
Back to topic tentang mimpi dan bermimpi, aku sering mimpi (berharap sih sebenernya) punya wardrobe isinya baju-baju yang ada di tumblr ato weheartit.com. Yang punya tumblr ato yang sering buka weheartit.com pasti ngertilah. Yang ga punya ato ga pernah buka? Buka sekarang!! Ayo cepat!! :p Maksudnya yang in gitulah, yang lagi ngetrend. Apalagi vintage thingiesnya. Beuh. Tiap liat pasti pengen punya.

Kayak gambar yang di bawah ini. Cewe mana coba yang ga pengen punya barang-barang semacam ini di wardrobe-nya?
Yaaa... Namanya juga cewe. Pasti pengen selalu keliatan cantik, menarik kan. Cewe mana yang ga pengen keliatan cantik, apalagi di depan gebetan. Huahahaha. Begetar tangan ngetiknya. Tapi kalo aku sendiri sih, lebih ke kepuasan diri. Kalo liat barang-barang keren di wardrobe itu rasanya puas, bangga, apalah namanya. Tapi ya namanya mimpi, ya tetep mimpi kalo ga diwujudin pake tindakan.

Istilahnya kalo disingkat kaya gini:
Mimpi -> punya wardrobe isinya baju-baju kewl
Tindakan -> -
Kenyataan -> sampai jaman jebot juga ga pakal keisi tuh wardrobe sama baju-baju begituan.

Semua mimpi yang kita punya itu harus diwujudkan dengan tindakan. Kalo berharap sama keajaiban atau mengharap dari Tuhan aja tanpa bekerja kan sama aja bohong, ya gak? Apalagi kalo ngandalin magic. Hahahha. Ya apapun mimpi kita, itu pasti bakal bisa diwujudkan. Se-silly apapun. Se-bego apapun. Se-gila apapun. Karena hal-hal yang besar itu gak jarang berawal dari hal-hal yang dianggap orang silly, gila, gak penting, buang-buang waktu, dll.

Aku sendiri sih boleh dibilang agak munafik ngepost ginian. Karena aku sendiri termasuk kategori orang yang paling malas mewujudkan mimpi. Karena takut. Karena malu. Karena pengecut. Yeah, you name it. Tapi dengan ngepost ginian, paling ga ada cambuk ato motivasi untuk ngeraih kan? Ya berdoa ajalah untuk yang ngepost ini hmmm (berdoa dimulai.... berdoa selesai).

Wets, tindakan yang kita lakukan untuk meraih mimpi itu juga harus dibarengi dengan doa ke Tuhan juga tapinya. Tanpa Tuhan, semuanya menjadi mungkin. Bersama Tuhan, everything is possible! Yeah.

Gitu deh. Sesuai judul entri, don't laugh. I know this really sounds weird, but somehow I just want to share something. And wish me tons of luck, too. I made a list of 101 things I have to do before I get into 16. Yes, I'm turning sixteen this year on September 19th. Whew, I'm such an oldiiiiieeee X(

Wish us luck with our dreams. Keep pursuing them coz I know everyone can!! ;)

Yeah. Still haven't got this so cool bag. UUUURRRRGGGH. In desperate need of bag-like-this X(

First, first, first!!!! My deepest condolence goes for Japan. Oh my God, the tsunami is really horrible. It blows up almost anything. Wow. Japan is one of those developed countries and they are really aware of this issue, this kind of thing. They've built very strong building which is already prepared for this kind of thing, the earthquake thing. But still. The nature is really expressing its anger, maybe? Just by seeing the video on tv, I know that it is really horrible. Really.. I hope the best for all Japanese.

I have this one week holiday. Say yeay!!!! The twelfth graders are having their UAS. Hope the best for them. Hm, I'm so excited yet confused. What should I do in this holiday. I've thought many cool things to do, like baking, swimming, watching movies with friends, buying bags. And then reality strikes. I don't have that much time. Hah. Bimbel here, les there. My schedule and my friends' schedule crash, you know. We can't find the time to do all these cool things together. Beside, I think none of us want to 'sacrifice' our tight activities. Heh.

So I guess I'll just spend my time with laptop and dvds! I'm just going to be online for the whole week I guess. So booorrrriiiinnnnnnggggg. You know, I sometimes secretly wish I had that kind of life where I could hang out with my friends, holding shop bags, laughing so hard, taking pictures, whatever. You name them. That girly thing routines we often see in movies. It's just... cute. I don't know.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I've watched like so many movies recently. Yeah, that many until I have no feeling to collect any of those movies that I've listed. But....... Wall Street : Money Never Sleeps is a great one.

The tense feeling, the romantic, the drama, and the rare vocabularies there were kinda driving me mad. Hehe. The end is quite predictable, though. But the casts are totally cool. Michael Douglas, Carrey Mulligan, Shia LaBeouf are really awesome. I really love the couple. Perfect for each other. Heheee... And after watching the movie, I really feel like being economic is totally cool. I mean, the idea of growing career in economy is really into me. Whether to become a broker, an expert, an accountant or whatever, I really want to become one of those people. It's interesting what I watch in movie. The tense feeling people have in stock market. It's just... wow.

Yeah, I guess that's it.
"Money's the bitch that never sleeps – and she's jealous" - Wall Street 2"

Lesson learned.

Flat day. Kinda good actually. I behave like what a normal girl does. Well, the thing is I've made such a hard decision. I have to choose between attending so-called-family party or competing in a debate. I really love to join the competition. Since I found the last one is quite enjoyable. I really love to! But in other hand, I have to attend this party. Because I have to. I want to! Gah, life is all about choices. Why can't I divide my body into some parts so that I could attend both of this important events. Anyway I finally choose to attend the party on the 5th. This won't happen twice. Beside, if I attend these both, I can't focus on both of them. It will be a mess, maybe. Just hope for the best.

Wew, I really want to do some shopping. Whatever kind of shopping. I want to have new clothes, pants, shoes, nail-polish, dvds, blabla. I know this is being greedy not grateful or whatever. But these days are just so tiring. Exams are definitely over but tasks aren't. They are always everywhere. Teachers give us tons of presentation tasks. Hahhhh.

Sometimes I don't really like being myself. For I demand perfection too much. I want everything I do, I have, to be flawless, and exactly, yes exactly, as I want. This is being too arrogant right? I can't just help it. That's why sometimes I'd rather do a group task myself than have someone do it. Because I'm afraid it will not be as exactly as I want.
I remember thinking these lacey socks sucked a lot when I was in elementary school. My mom used to make me use this to church and to school (rarely of course, it's forbidden actually). I used to think that these things are awful and I was ashamed of wearing them.

And I remember thinking that this kind of collar was so uncool. Like it was so awful and I didn't want to have it.

But now? Hell. I want these items so much. I really love to have some lacey socks or this kind of cute collar. Why regrets always come late? I used to think that good things are just things which are becoming trend but it turned out to be wrong. I remember I didn't really like something vintage back then. But now? I'm so in love with all vintage pictures, especially that vintage fashion things. But I have no guts so wear them, even worse, I don't know where to buy that kind of things.

What I'm trying to say is, don't say that you dislike something so bad that you don't want to have or whatever the verb, in your life. Sometimes, things happen in the opposite way. I'm not saying that I never do this. I often. I can't seem to realize that this kind of thing happens in life. We don't always get what we want. God gives what we really need. And sometimes, what we think is good for us, is not. And I'm telling this as well, more like a thought, some kind of sharing to you who read this, and to me too. Please don't let the regrets come to us. It always sucks, believe me.

Lame.

Yellow.
It's too damn late to say this. I finally changed my header or banner or whatever!!!!
Hahahaha.... Better than never right? But something went really error. I can't change my background argh urgh. Never mind thooo.

It's 2 days more to March. Kinda excited. My amigo is going to launch (eh?) her new house on March 5th. Boo-yaaahhh. It's going to be huge I guess hihi. And it's gonna be fun!! Since my old classmates are all invited. Hehe some meet up again with my beloved buddiesss<3 Seriously I can't wait... I hope all the best for you March. Really. I don't wanna be cashless. Pst I wanna buy some new clothes. No time in this hectic February. No one to accompany me, too. Arh, where are my friends when I need them? :-p


By the way I've watched the Black Swan. Natalie Portman is truly an actress. Oh my God!!!! Nina Sayers awww. You got me eeee during the movie. She is truly brilliant, excellent. Exceptional, man. And her killer body. Aw my. I want that. One of the greatest actress now. Yeah she is. She really deserves an Academy Award for this. She's pregnant now by the way. All the best for the baby..

Exams r ova. Yay!!!! But I'm not really free at all. There are way too many tasks. Presentations, discussions, whatever.... Is it so hard to just let us be free for a while, teachers? Jeez, I can't watch the dvds then. I should be doing my task now actually. But internet seduces me.. Ah... That's the naughty of you internet. (yuck)

I'm looking forward to having this kind one bag, really. A mulberry. Me wantey so much. I just don't know where to find it here, in Medan. Anyone (like there is anyone reading my blog, really?) who knows please let me know? He. Sorry for bad grammar.

I'm really into seeing vintage stuffs. Feels like I wanna have all of them. Like these pictures below. So cute I could dieeeeeeeeee *o*

my fave one. A lace dress. I already have one by the way. Em maybe two. They're white and cream :-p hehe but this pastel pink one is the most wanted. And the shoes will make a good combination if I dare to say. hehehe

I want a single classic watch like this one. Ugh. Isn't it so cute? Right? Right? Arghhh.

Love. Whatever. You define it yourself.

Unyu post

I saw these photos and wondered why...... Babies are always so cuteee <3
Aw, I want one of em right now.... They're so unyu-unyuuu..


Another unyu detected from Vanilla Twilight - Owl City. The lyrics are touching. I really want someone to sing this for me.. Ah impossible for now... But still, believe in the impossible :P

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I’ll doze off safe and soundly,
But I’ll miss your arms around me
I’ll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I’ll watch the night turn light blue,
But it’s not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn’t so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I’ll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven’t slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I’ll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don’t feel so alone.
I don’t feel so alone.
I don’t feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I’ll think of you… tonight.
I’ll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I’ll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I’ll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won’t forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I’d whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

Random quote came :

"You don't believe bad people exist until you become of one them"

Whatever

Things are going wrong. I don't know what's going on. I feel like a shit walking on earth trying to find something that I even don't know what it is. Why is everything coming in a different way? I try to be calm. I can accept the fact that sometimes life is incredibly cruel and unfair. And I understand that all I gotta do is just move on. But at this time, I just can't. Thinking back at what happened with me and comparing it with others. Seems like life is playing on me. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this.

I'm sick of being sick about the same sick thing in this sick life. I feel like I'm worthless.


I'm sick, anyone. Can you hear me? I need extremely new life.

Boys suck.

I don't understand boys. They move on so easily. They never really get touched. They never actually care. They say shit in front of girls. They mock girls, and we, still, love them. How could it happen? I know I have no right to post this kind of thing because I'm not an expert in love.
But I know some 'love stories' that have jerks in it (read: boys)

How can a boy forget his long-lasting girlfriend so easily? How? How? How? Doesn't he have mind?
Or is he still using his brain? While the girl is still regretting and crying over her broken heart, he -in the other hand- has dated with another pretty girl. It sucks. I wanna vomit every time I see that kind of love story. Every girls deserve best men to be with. Pleaseeee, don't waste your time going out with a jerk like that. The one that thinks having a girlfriend is a primary needs. That could easily pick a girl to be with. I'm sick of those over-confident boys. Period.


Oh well I know. As all people say (including me), love hurts. It tears you into pieces. You gotta find the right one to fix all pieces to be a new one again?

-I wanna eat a piece of love :3-

I hate being too sensitive.

Good evening! Another posting here. I wanna tell you bloggie my feeling right now. Yeah you there could close this page. I really won't mind. This posting is really not worth-noticing.

I hate being too sensitive. I make conclusion too early that it sometimes disappoints me, even makes me down. A little detail could ruin my mood. I want everything to run perfectly. Oh, am I wrong? Well I guess I am. Nobody is perfect. Nothing is perfect. So am I selfish then? Yes, I am. :|

I hate being too sensitive. That when my friends posted some rude things on facebook or twitter I felt like I was the one they meant. It's sometimes true actually. Eventho they didn't tell me, I could sense it. Hoof hoof, like a dog. LOL.

I hate being too sensitive. Yeah, I really am. I wish I could change this but it's so hard. So fucking damn H A R D. This sensitive feeling always comes up in my mind when something happens. Fuc yeah fuc.

*sigh*
this is the end of my babbling-not-worth-noticing-posting.
I have no idea what I totally typed here.
Moron.
Such a labile moron.
Such a sensitive moron.


Well, lemme introduce someone special to you.

*oh well this is my sister, Amanda Seyfried from the movie Mean Girls, Mamma Mia!, Dear John, and Letters to Juliet. She's really pretty right? She's really well in acting, too. And her smile is so adorable! She's so admirable! ♥*

I promise I'll review this pretty lady in this bloggie. Hehe. If I have time okay? :\

You could LOL at me.

I Don't Love You lyrics

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still a good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out while you can

When you go would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you down and out
It's where you oughta stay

Well after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up while you can, whoa whoa

When you go would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?
Well come on, come on!

When you go would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"?

I don't love you like I loved you yesterday
I don't love you like I loved you yesterday

Just ignore. I'm being labille.

Life is so unfair. They let the beauty get all they want. The attention, the love, the protection, they got all things easily. It seems like they're really doing their life well without having any burden. And the duck like me? Oh well, do I need to explain here? My life is kind of embarrassing. I regret most of all things I've done in my life. HAHAHAHAHA. Let's laugh. This is funny, right?

I envy them. They don't even give a shit to their tasks at school, assignments, and all the bla-bla-yawn-things at school. But me?! Oh well, I really give a damn to school. I worry a lot about my score, my image(wtf?-_-), my paper, and all mothafacka things. Do you know why? Maybe it's because SCHOOL IS THE ONLY THING I COULD BE, AT LEAST, GOOD AT. Uhhhh. Poor me. I have no talent at all so I should focus to my school-_- I wonder how things will go if I have a spectacular talent, like playing the piano, or dancing, or maybe singing, or good at one kind of sport. Hahaha... Why do I dream too much? Come on-_____- I'm just an average girl, right? With boring life (well, not really boring. My life gets really suck when I'm at home-_-, but sometimes friends could cheer me up a bit). HAAAAAHHH. I wanna have a talent that at least I could be proud of. I don't wanna be just another girl in school that anyone underestimates.

Hm............. I wanna have a life like in a novel. Meeting the one you love, living in a sweet love story or having really good friends, or maybe meeting a riding-horse-prince. Why can't I have a life like that? Why is this reality so cruel? Cruel life!!!! I hate you for showing me the life I don't wanna live in. :(

Stop judging.

You can't judge me. No one could judge anyone. My Almighty creator is the only one that could judge. And as a warning, I only show you people what you need and you wanna see. I don't even bother to show you the real me..... Haha. They tell anyone I'm arrogant. But you haven't even talked to me yet. You coward! You say I pretend like a hero. You mthrfckr! We just meet and you already made such a conclusion? Don't you think it's too little too fast? Okay maybe I'm not that nice. I'm not that adorable. I'm ugly, bad-temper, and all things.... But at least I'm still trying to be nice, to all of you. Please appreciate me for a while. Or maybe I can't be appreciated? Oh come on....... All people deserve the appreciation. Well, respect me and I'll respect you.

How to kill this eazy weezy dizzy head

Fellow readers. zzz. Ehhh I'm really having a super dizzy head. I don't know whats the reason. Of course.. If I know it, I won't be wondering like this. And this damn headache sometimes really wanna kill me. Oh fart. Just forget it.

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hey, thanks for scrolling. This posting hasn't finished yet. Hell yeah.

Jadi tadi terlintas dalam pikiran yang absurd ini.... Ntar kalo aku ngelanjut SMA di santom1, aku mau masuk eksul debat. Wehehe. Terlintas juga memori kapan tau antara aku dan Citin (baca kakak yang tidak dipanggil kakak)

Dina: eh, bahasa inggrismu kan bagus, kok gak masuk debat aja kayak .... , .... , (nama disamarkan)
Citin: ah ngapain. yang masuk debat itu kan yang kreak kreak.


ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEBBBBBBB.

Dalam hati, ah masa sih? Masa? Padahal debat itu keren loh menurutku. Menyanggah apa yang orang lain katakan dengan apa yang kita tau. Hoho. Tapi kalo dipikir pikir lama2 mungkin itu ada benernya juga. Tapi tergantung cara kita mandang sih. Rasanya keren plus bangga aja kalo kita bisa nyanggah pendapat orang dengan pengetahuan yang kita punya. HAHAHA. Is it true? Tell me whaddaya think readers! Feel free :)







PS : I can't find MMJ here anywhere in Gramedia. Help me anyone!!!!! I'm curious to know and read it... :D

Surely in a bad mood plus hungry

wazzzuuuuppp?!
ehmm, I'm currently in my bad mood, people. I saw something really uneducated. But I really won't tell you here. It's really super disgusting eeerrrrhhhh-_-"
I myself even want to brain-wash my mind so I won't remember it.

now I wanna share some of my random thought.
Hmm. I'm sure all of you readers have ever heard this quotes "be yourself even if you're nobody" . So why do we have to change ourselves for something or for someone. To get somebody's attention. People, including me, often ask someone to change someone's bad habits. But do we have to? Everybody says be yourself, be yourself... but why we still force ourselves to change ourselves? It's called pathetic.

hem, it's just my opinion people. no offense. this is just a random thought. And I found this is interesting to share on my blog. Feel free to comment, maybe? Huh. :D

You let me down... for a while

Seems like the world is giving me the hardest trials in my life, you know.
Things are not settled down. I get my things back to normal but the other things ruin. Gooshhhh, really don't understand how this world works.
Jiahaha, in other hands those useless words above means that : I'm down. Yeah, for some reasons that I can't and don't wanna explain here. Tehee.

But when I'm down, I know that God always has His ways to cheer me by sending friends to me. hehe. They don't entertain me, because they don't know that I'm that down. I just shared this problem to them. Haha. Yes. And other ways I cheer myself back is by watching youtube video. Yihaaa. SNSD never fails to amuse and entertain me. Yes... I love them. HAHHA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TGbwL8kSpEk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7mPqycQ0tQ
Hahah. Those songs and videos, I'm sure, are not supposed to make the watchers laugh. But hahah. I laugh you know. They're so funny. The way they dance hahah. And the choreography too. LOL.

Oke so now goodbye. I have to get get get getttt back to this world. Er?? Whatever