Girls over boys? or vice versa?

(note before reading: this is just a RANDOM thought, really. never intend to hurt anyone's or certain people's feeling. freedom ftw!)

weird title, huh? I decided to blog a little. I didn't even know what to post at first, but a flash plus random thought suddenly came up to me. and taa-daa this is it. I'll just yap something about *drumroll, please* human relationship. (or so it's called)

to be precise, I'm not gonna talk about anything related to dating kind relationship. who am I kidding. me? talking about that? you ain't got shit. KAY BACK TO THE POINT. I was just wondering about which friendship is better, girl-and-girl-friendship or girl-and-boy-friendship.

As far as I've experienced, both of these have their own good and downside. Let me clear my points, fellow dudes and dudettes.

Girl-and-girl-friendship:

great thing about this is that you'll have great time of gossiping (yes, people, of course). they're more sensitive towards others. very caring and comforting. you could shop together like tomorrow's the end of the world, do girlie thingies (which I absolutely love!), trade compliments, style others, and stuffs.

bad thing about this is that IT'S GIRLS, people. we're sensitive bitches. we (yes, from the first person point of view) might not say a word about something but we could keep it in our heart and that could stink (what?). and of course, jealousy. girls are longing for rivalry. and everybody becomes the same strangers for us when it comes to this thing.

Girl-and-boy-relationship:

great thing about this is that we (at least myself) don't need to feel anxious about stuff we have just said just cause we think it might hurt their heart. that's how boys roll. they're simple. they are not really demanding I think.

bad thing about this is that you might be careful for not falling for your own boy-bestfriend. I'm serious on this because I personally don't believe about a very close relationship between these two opposite sexual without them, at least one of 'em, falling for another.

I myself think that I'd be really cool to have boy-bestfriends. Since it seems way, and I mean it, much simpler than girl-bestfriends. But I guess that might not be a perfect deal, huh? 'Cause nothing beats the excitement we scream from top of our lungs when we have something to gossip for; which is basically our own lives, people's lives, stupidity, and of course BOYS, d'oh.

And above all, underline this, that it all depends on the kind of people you're dealing with. Some girls are real angels but some others are serious bitches. Some boys are seriously cool lads but others are just pathetic losers. Just be aware, you guise. Befriend at your own risk!

Me? I'm just a pretty normal gal. But, to quote someone's twitter bio, that just depends on your definition of normal! Kudos.

How I act

Comeback with not so many to tell. Hehe, here here hear.
I got so fed up with life recently. Fyuh. So full of drama. Tired of watching, playing, being a part of drama.

Eum here I got a confession to make.
I may act childish. I may laugh a lot. I may smile. I may make jokes. I may stay calm.
Yes, I do it in front of, dear beloved friends.
Have you ever seen how I act in front of my family?
I act angry. I speak rarely. Sometimes I speak a lot, but get ignored. I laugh when it's necessary.
So it's pretty much the contrary, the opposite.

I may laugh a lot in the school, because I don't do it a lot at home.
I may act childish in front of you guys, because I can't.
I may speak a lot, complain a lot, because I don't really talk in the family.
Well, yeah, pretty much.

I really apologize for being a super bitch to you. I'm sorry. I'm just like this. Uncontrollable. Moody. Messed up.

I'm not saying that I'm not happy at home. I am. It's just the way I get it at home and school is different. Some of you may think that I cover my all gloomy and dark attitude at home by being so childish,noisy,and bla-bla whatever. Yeah, you could call me so. But it's the way I want to have fun with you guys, because I can't find any other ways.


That's it I guess. Weird, eh?
Tell you what, I'm gonna have malua in two weeks more, WHOA. And next week, I'll have the tests. And at the end of the month, I'll have the semester exams. SUPER WHOA MONTH YEA. Okay, gotta go do bio task yeah. Wish me luck :D

Quick update

Yeahss. Hello first. Arrrggghhh. You see the layout? The background? I wanna stab myself. *eh not really actually* I destroyed all things! The layout, the background. Now I'm back with the template blogspot gives. Whatever. Too lazy to fix things up *yeahssss, so me*

So guess what? I'm having holidays!! Yaay. You ask for what? For whatever's sake. I don't care as long as I have my holiday, my day off B) Naaah, the 12th grader will have their government or national examinations from March 18th - I don't when. And then here it comes... Easter! Tada...

Me not really excited about it tho. Not that kind of girl. Weird. For your information, I've never joined any Easter celebration like what other used to do when they were kids. You know, like going to church very early in the morning, finding the hidden eggs, and so on. I can't even name the others. Huf. I guess it's me.. Yeah. How bout ya? I know. I'm asking no one since no one reads this dead blog.

I'm really thinking of making new blog. Since this one becomes to look like trash day by day. Since I can't customize the background and the layout anymore. I don't freaking know. It said 'it's not applicable for this theme'. Ye so whatever.

Tomorrow is Sunday yeeaaah. Going to church as usual. But tomorrow is kinda different from other Sundays. I'm going to join a bazaar. It's actually the Teenagers of HKBP Tj. Sari. Do you know Parguru Malua? We're seeking for fund for out retreat. Yeahs, wish we luck.

Been watching this video of Girls' Generation dozens time. Love love! Btw Jessica is going to be 22nd this Monday on April 18th. Oh unnie, wae so pretty? ;)

First, first, first!!!! My deepest condolence goes for Japan. Oh my God, the tsunami is really horrible. It blows up almost anything. Wow. Japan is one of those developed countries and they are really aware of this issue, this kind of thing. They've built very strong building which is already prepared for this kind of thing, the earthquake thing. But still. The nature is really expressing its anger, maybe? Just by seeing the video on tv, I know that it is really horrible. Really.. I hope the best for all Japanese.

I have this one week holiday. Say yeay!!!! The twelfth graders are having their UAS. Hope the best for them. Hm, I'm so excited yet confused. What should I do in this holiday. I've thought many cool things to do, like baking, swimming, watching movies with friends, buying bags. And then reality strikes. I don't have that much time. Hah. Bimbel here, les there. My schedule and my friends' schedule crash, you know. We can't find the time to do all these cool things together. Beside, I think none of us want to 'sacrifice' our tight activities. Heh.

So I guess I'll just spend my time with laptop and dvds! I'm just going to be online for the whole week I guess. So booorrrriiiinnnnnnggggg. You know, I sometimes secretly wish I had that kind of life where I could hang out with my friends, holding shop bags, laughing so hard, taking pictures, whatever. You name them. That girly thing routines we often see in movies. It's just... cute. I don't know.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I've watched like so many movies recently. Yeah, that many until I have no feeling to collect any of those movies that I've listed. But....... Wall Street : Money Never Sleeps is a great one.

The tense feeling, the romantic, the drama, and the rare vocabularies there were kinda driving me mad. Hehe. The end is quite predictable, though. But the casts are totally cool. Michael Douglas, Carrey Mulligan, Shia LaBeouf are really awesome. I really love the couple. Perfect for each other. Heheee... And after watching the movie, I really feel like being economic is totally cool. I mean, the idea of growing career in economy is really into me. Whether to become a broker, an expert, an accountant or whatever, I really want to become one of those people. It's interesting what I watch in movie. The tense feeling people have in stock market. It's just... wow.

Yeah, I guess that's it.
"Money's the bitch that never sleeps – and she's jealous" - Wall Street 2"

First day first

The first day of March! Ah, quite sad, disappointing. I even cried today. I cried so hard yet so quiet until my eyes got swollen. They were really red and it was even hard to blink. But now they are quite okay.

Today is also my first day of PMS this month. That's why I'm being soooo emotional. I felt broken.
All I can do is just disappointing, making people around me feel sad. Why can't I make someone be happy? Am I that bad? I'm just never good enough for anyone.

I can't go on this month like this. And I don't want the rest of the days in this month to be like this, all gloomy and sad!! I gotta wake up, cheer myself up. I have to survive through this month.

Today is Justin Beaver's birthday. Yeah, that other girls' idol. Tell him I say happy birthday. He must be feeling so glad to have me congratulate him. It's an honor you know. wkwkwk

AND FYI, MY Ron's having his birthday today! Happy birthday dear!! Wish you the very best. Keep being funny ;;;)

Hm, back to topic. I'm gonna be strong and I promise (really, I mean this) to fill this blog like every week. Yes, this blog has to live up and rise. Ha. Whatever. Guess this is it. Good bye!!

Lame.

Yellow.
It's too damn late to say this. I finally changed my header or banner or whatever!!!!
Hahahaha.... Better than never right? But something went really error. I can't change my background argh urgh. Never mind thooo.

It's 2 days more to March. Kinda excited. My amigo is going to launch (eh?) her new house on March 5th. Boo-yaaahhh. It's going to be huge I guess hihi. And it's gonna be fun!! Since my old classmates are all invited. Hehe some meet up again with my beloved buddiesss<3 Seriously I can't wait... I hope all the best for you March. Really. I don't wanna be cashless. Pst I wanna buy some new clothes. No time in this hectic February. No one to accompany me, too. Arh, where are my friends when I need them? :-p


By the way I've watched the Black Swan. Natalie Portman is truly an actress. Oh my God!!!! Nina Sayers awww. You got me eeee during the movie. She is truly brilliant, excellent. Exceptional, man. And her killer body. Aw my. I want that. One of the greatest actress now. Yeah she is. She really deserves an Academy Award for this. She's pregnant now by the way. All the best for the baby..

Exams r ova. Yay!!!! But I'm not really free at all. There are way too many tasks. Presentations, discussions, whatever.... Is it so hard to just let us be free for a while, teachers? Jeez, I can't watch the dvds then. I should be doing my task now actually. But internet seduces me.. Ah... That's the naughty of you internet. (yuck)

I'm looking forward to having this kind one bag, really. A mulberry. Me wantey so much. I just don't know where to find it here, in Medan. Anyone (like there is anyone reading my blog, really?) who knows please let me know? He. Sorry for bad grammar.

I'm really into seeing vintage stuffs. Feels like I wanna have all of them. Like these pictures below. So cute I could dieeeeeeeeee *o*

my fave one. A lace dress. I already have one by the way. Em maybe two. They're white and cream :-p hehe but this pastel pink one is the most wanted. And the shoes will make a good combination if I dare to say. hehehe

I want a single classic watch like this one. Ugh. Isn't it so cute? Right? Right? Arghhh.

Love. Whatever. You define it yourself.

New things!

Hey'all!!!!!!! Howz life eh?
It's 2011 already hehe. Duh, I'm so not up-to-date. Actually I have lots of free time to update my blog. But as usual, laziness always wins. So on this day, on this Chinese New Year, I'm gonna say :
"Happy Chinese New Year for everyone who celebrate!!"

I don't know what people usually do on this day. I'm not a Chinese. Beside, believe me, I never attend any of Chinese NY Celebrations. Yeah, poor thing. Oh, one thing I know is that people usually give angpao... Hehe. But I rarely get, tho. Since I got not so many relatives nor friends who are Chinese.

Have you realized ehhh? I got new name and new url for my blog. Hehehe. I feel pretty bored with the last one. Beside, the previous name I had was a little weird and meaningless. But now? I have Pink Pacific as the name and floralnerdencyclopedia as url.

Pink Pacific is not a new thing. It was my previous url. Why Pink Pacific? Because I love hearing it and it has a special meaning, well not really special actually. Pink is my most favorite color and Pacific is the name of the ocean. Ocean is a really large, big thing right?! And this blog, well I hope, will be a big thing, too. This blog has big meaning for me, even if not for now at least for whenever it will be :p So I combine these two words and get Pink Pacific :]

floralnerdencyclopedia? Hm, actually in the first time, I wanted a whatanerdwants url. But unfortunately it is taken by somebody else. Feel a lil disappointed tho but it's fine. Then I try to search a new url that has somewhat relation to nerd thing. First, it's because I'm a nerd, I just realized it and I'm proud of being a nerd. Second, a quote "Nerds kiss the best" from a novel recently comes up to my mind. Mind me, I'm not a pervert. It's just like, ehm, I'm feeling like nerd isn't always someone who's only good in school, interested in books, or other things whatsoever. They can do best at other things, too. Well in that proverb it's kissing :p hehe whatever laaaah. Back to url, I always love flower. The thought of flower always calms me down. I love floral pattern, too. And I'd love to combine the words.... floralnerd is a name I want to be described ;p And encyclopedia? Well, it's a book that almost tells everything right? And this blog will tell everything about me, maybe? Hehe I'm not that sure.

So here it is. Pink Pacific and floralnerdencyclopedia. The only thing that bothers me about the url is, my biology tentor told us that flower is somehow the name of plants' genital. Ugh, but just don't think about this that way okay? And one thing! I'd really love to change the banner and the background as well. But this may take a long time since I'm really lazy to make such things. Hopefully I can do this during this CNY's holidays (I've got only 2 day holidays ugh).

I've been really craving for a leather jacket!!! I read Go!Girl's January issue and saw a leather jacket combined with a white tee and maxi floral skirt. And it goes really lovely. On another entry, I'll post the picture ok? I told my mom I wanted one but she told me I'm not going to have any since real leather jacket is very expensive and she told me that the synthetic one is smelly =0=. After a few days, I figured out that my dad just bought a leather jacket. And as usual, as a normal woman who likes to gossip, my mom told my dad about me wanting one. And he teased me about that hellyeeeeah.

(this is not the picture)

Please anyone? Buy me one? u.u

Lately I've found it enjoyable seeing runway photos (or whatever the names are). These are one of my fave one ehhe.
I really don't know from what collection these are. Since I found them in a social-bookmark site, weheartit.com. Credit for wonderful designer(s) who've made these incredible dresses. I wish I had one!

-dina

I'm not gonna miss you.

Yellow. Nitey fellas. It's like 9 p.m-ish according to my laptop. Well, in a good mood to write. After I saw Diana Rikasari's latest post abt what have happened to her during this year, I'm inspired to write that kind of post, too.

Hm, okay get me started. I can't really remember all, but I'll try to do my best :)

- January : *pass, totally forget*

- February : *totally forget, crap!*

- March : I had my UN in this month. I was really scared, sad, excited, but mostly scared. So many craps happened in this month. Like, I had a fight with some of my classmate because I really hate them who used 'joki' for this UN. HAHH.

- April : this was a hectic month, too. I had my UAS, wow!!! Even harder than UN. But this wasn't very long, just about a week or so. Because I had my very very long holidays..... Ugh. But we held a farewell party, here. Not a really good one, thought. Mostly boring, but cool!

- May : our very own farewell party, in Stefany's house. It was great. Hahaha, watching Harry Potter until we fell asleep. And the manggang2 part was greawt, even though not as spectacular as I thought before :p

- June : I passed the UN!!! If I'm not mistaken, the test for SMA St. Thomas 1 was held in this month. Kinda nervous, but not at all actually. Hehe.

- July : I'm in. I'm officially a senior high school student. I'm a SMA St. Thomas 1 student. And my shs story begins here.... Germany only got the 3rd on World Cup.. :(

- August : It was the beginning of all, the friendship with X-A. Start from the celebration of August 17th and so on and on an on.... And we had a surprise birthday party for Patricia :D

- September : Hey its my birthday month. Nothing special, really. A disappointing month maybe. My parents were not there on my birthday. And well I was fine with it.

- October : X-A and X-D went to Karangsari for retreat. It was great. But the outbound was kind of disappointing. Hahhh. How I wish we weren't the first to go..

- November : month of examinations. As usual, hectic, stressful, full of tense, and the competition in X-A was so tight. I barely even breathed :p

- December : Christmas month! Holiday month! Hell month, too! We'd get our result, too. And I've just got mine on the 22nd. I was on the 2nd. Not disappointing, but well, I wish I could do more than that. And it's Christmas finally, not really a great one.

Okay. So that's all I can imagine. In this year, I've been living such a complicated journey of life, maybe, I dare to say so. Fighting with parents, friends, having enemies. Well, it's so teensy right? Lately I've been feeling unfine, especially with someone I really feel close with. I feel like she's ignoring me... I apologize for all faults I've been doing for you, and for all people I know. I've been such an arrogant girl to everyone.

Thank you so much for friends in X-A. You're all great, except that we're not so close yet. Hm. I guess it's just me that can't grow close to someone so fast. Thank you for all unos, the laugh, the movies, and so on and on.

Thank you so much for theDUWAS. I miss you all a lot. I wanna meet you all, yeah all.

Thank you, parents. We're fighting now. And it's just hard to say anything here. You're both sometimes annoying, and I hate you. But I'm kinda sure, I will forget this the next morning. Hah..

Thank you for filling my days in 2010, for cheering me, for laughing with me, for all the words we've told. I'm not gonna miss this year, I think. This year is a mess...............................

But in this year, I've already learned many things. I've been starting to love many things. I love Mesut Ozil, I love tumblr, I love we-heart-it, I love Ron/Hermione, I love Ronald Weasley, I love Rupert Grint and so on!!!

Now, welcome 2011. I've been waiting to enjoy you! Be nice to me. Be my year. Be my year of happiness.

:)


With a bunch of Liquid Luck,




Dina.

This... is... schweet :')

“Hang on a moment!” said Ron sharply. “We’ve forgotten someone!”
“Who?” asked Hermione.
“The house-elves, they’ll all be down in the kitchen, won’t they?”
“You mean we ought to get them fighting?” asked Harry.
“No,” said Ron seriously, “I mean we should tell them to get out. We don’t want anymore Dobbies, do we? We can’t order them to die for us—”
There was a clatter as the basilisk fangs cascaded out of Hermione’s arms. Running at Ron, she flung them around his neck and kissed him full on the mouth. Ron threw away the fangs and broomstick he was holding and responded with such enthusiasm that he lifted Hermione off her feet.
“Is this the moment?” Harry asked weakly, and when nothing happened except that Ron and Hermione gripped each other still more firmly and swayed on the spot, he raised his voice. “Oi! There’s a war going on here!”
Ron and Hermione broke apart, their arms still around each other.
“I know, mate,” said Ron, who looked as though he had recently been hit on the back of the head with a Bludger, “so it’s now or never, isn’t it?”
“Never mind that, what about the Horcrux?” Harry shouted. “D’you think you could just – just hold it in until we’ve got the diadem?”
“Yeah – right – sorry – “ said Ron, and he and Hermione set about gathering up fangs, both pink in the face.

[Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Chapter 31, The Battle of Hogwarts]

Omaigawwwdddddd. I'm totally, entirely, extremely, in love with Ron and Hermione. Awch, this couple has driven me crazy lately. Yeah I'm so lame. And pity me, I should've realized sooner that this couple is really meant to be and worth-shipping <3 fufufufufufu. They're both gorgeous and the actors that play the characters are really cute!!!!!!! I mean, look at Emma Watson and Rupert Grint.

Emma is really really really beautiful. She's like a goddess. She's really charming and I'm sure all girls, all boys think that she's pretty. And Rupert?! Awwww, that dude. He's really comical. Hahahahaha. He's really funny. He's full of expression. I always love the way he speaks something. Cool and attractive. When they were kids, I admit that Daniel was way cuter than Rupert. But now?!?!?! Hello!!!! Rupert is totally more awesome, more charming, more more more and moreeee attractive than Daniel. Well, we're speaking about taste also here. Hehe. Rupert's sure hot, hot, and hot. Gawd, I'm running outta words here-_-

Okay, so the point is, I totally ship R/Hr couple. Sweet, cute, always bickering but they never hate each other;) It's actually my point here. They show their love by bickering, almost every time.

Yeap, I know you know that I was not really into Harry Potter's stuffs. I love Harry Potter, the movies. Well I basically love all movies hahahaha. But because of this gorgeous couple, I begin to like the books. I'm planning to buy all the series. I really wanna know their relation since the first year of their Hogwart's school. Because the books and the movies sometime tell different story right?

Well well well. Now, I'm sorry for being such a bad bad baddddd blogger. It's been centuries since my last post. T_T I've already got my first semester result. Not bad, eh? Got the second rank. Well, this is the first one I got the second. Tee-hee. I'm just gonna try harder on the next semester. But hell who cares. Let's just try our best. Phew.

Guys it's December 25th now. Don't you feel the joy of Christmas? I can feel it now, hehe, not really actually. Christmas is just the same all years. Yeeeeeaa dude all yearss. Now, I'm gonna end this entry. Back to reading some fun facts about R/Hr or back to twittering!!


CATCH YA LATER,



Love,
Dina;)

Exams overrrrrrr

OI! Goshhhh, it's forever since my last post. You know I was really busy with exam thingy and now all are finished. Can't be any happier you know. And my exam went really bad goshhh I'm kinda well-prepared but some of the teachers were being such an ass. They gave us really short time to do all the loads of questions. Phew. And that's bout it.

Now, I've watched two saga these recent weeks. They're Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows and Narnia: the Voyage of the Dawn Treader. Both of em were awesome.

I love Hp7 because it was really funny and the relationship between Ron and Hermione grew bigger. Teehe and I'm so in love with this couple. They're so frigging adorable, so pretty :3. The movie was so funny and well so awesome. Thumbs up. This series is better than the previous Harry Potter.

And I really like Narnia3. Edmund was so handsome and freaking adorable there!!!! Me and Patricia kept telling Laura that he is our husband HAHAHAHA. We freaked out there. And that was really happy.

OKAY. ENOUGH BABBLING. NOW LET'S PRAY FOR MY EXAMINATIONS RESULT!!! Hope that I will get good and score and no remedial wait me okay. Amin.

Disenchanted

Well I was there on the day
they sold the cause for the
queen
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen
I hate the ending myself
But it started with an alright scene

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "You won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night
long? (all night long, night
long)
And will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learned a goddamned thing

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night
long? (all night long, all
night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone
Because you never learned a god damned thing

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

So go, go away, just go, run away.
Now where did you run to?
And where did you hide?
Go find another way
Price you pay

Woah oh...
Woah oh...
Woah oh...
Woah oh, woah oh, woah oh, woah oh...

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you, come on

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

At all x4

I've had enough, bitches. I'm intangible. Don't try to teach or preach me what to do. Am not gonna listen to your words, biiiitccchhheeesss. xoxo

Hell love smells bad.

"I want to be forever in your arms. But I realize it's quite impossible. Why? 1. Forever never exists. 2. You arms aren't big enough"

I make a promise to myself. I'll try as hard as I can to ignore your appearance. Well, it's not that you want to get closer to me, I know it's not gonna happen. But it's just simply because I can't keep my body not to be closer to you.

Get it huh?

It's actually really simple. I ignore your appearance because I really wanna be with you. Ignoring you maybe can help me to forget you. AHHHHH. Why is it so hard to tell what's actually been in my mind. Forget it!!!!!! I'm just simply idiot.

Dopost.

Pernah merasa hopeless? Pernah merasa worthless? Pernah merasa benar-benar clueless tentang hidupmu, hidupmu, dan hidupmu? Siapa yang ga pernah? Itu masih wajar. Nah, kalo kita ngalamin itu hampir di tiap malam gimana? Nye?sek? PASTI. Gak mungkin enggak. Ngeliat hidup orang lain, kok kayaknya fine-fine aja. Ngeliat hidup kita, kok kayanya jauh dari kata fine.

Well, it is really happening to me. Hopeless, worthless, clueless. Dan -less yang paling besar kurasakan itu worthless. Hahaha. Bodoh. Ya memang bodoh. Tapi memang aku ini worthless. Ga ada gunanya. Bapak bilang, orang itu bakal ada gunanya kalo dia bisa berguna bagi orang lain. Nah, aku. Gunaku apa? Cuma buat orang kesel aja, kan?! Apa lagi? Bikin masalah. Mungkin salah satu guna baikku: menjadi contoh bagi orang lain supaya orang lain jadi lebih baik. Hahaha funny as fuck. Temenku sendiri pernah bilang kalo aku sering kali bikin masalah sama guru. Dan tau rasanya? Itu sebenarnya nusuk, sakit. Cuma aku ga mau bilang (nah ini diketik -_-). Tapi kalo dipikir-pikir ya, mending gini daripada ngejalanin hidup yang datar, flat, monotone. Ga ada kepuasan mungkin. Well, tergantung tipe orangnya juga sih. Hm.

Clueless. I have no idea what is totally going on with me. You know your friends change when you don't know big thing that is happening to them right now. Sakit woy. Hahaha. No, I'm not your parents that need to hear every-single-fucking-thing about your life. Hell I don't want to. But I can be your diary if you want. Place where you could share all your feelings without hearing any advice or suggestion. OH NO! Maybe I lose your trust. Fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Awesome as fuck. Aku benci ke-sok-ekslusifan dan kepurapura-tegaran dari seseorang yang aku kenal dekat. Ya aku tahu aku kadang kayak gitu. Tahu kenapa? Karena aku tahu/or exactly merasa kalo mereka kadang gak mau tahu tentang apa yg happening. Hahahahahahaha.

Yes, ini posting memang lebay kali. Mau gimana lagi, orang yg ngepost aja lebaynya setengah mampus. Tapi tau kan perasaan kaya gini gimana rasanya? Sakit.

I think I should find someone new to be friend with. I need something new. I need inspiration, not just another negotiation!

I hate being too sensitive.

Good evening! Another posting here. I wanna tell you bloggie my feeling right now. Yeah you there could close this page. I really won't mind. This posting is really not worth-noticing.

I hate being too sensitive. I make conclusion too early that it sometimes disappoints me, even makes me down. A little detail could ruin my mood. I want everything to run perfectly. Oh, am I wrong? Well I guess I am. Nobody is perfect. Nothing is perfect. So am I selfish then? Yes, I am. :|

I hate being too sensitive. That when my friends posted some rude things on facebook or twitter I felt like I was the one they meant. It's sometimes true actually. Eventho they didn't tell me, I could sense it. Hoof hoof, like a dog. LOL.

I hate being too sensitive. Yeah, I really am. I wish I could change this but it's so hard. So fucking damn H A R D. This sensitive feeling always comes up in my mind when something happens. Fuc yeah fuc.

*sigh*
this is the end of my babbling-not-worth-noticing-posting.
I have no idea what I totally typed here.
Moron.
Such a labile moron.
Such a sensitive moron.


Well, lemme introduce someone special to you.

*oh well this is my sister, Amanda Seyfried from the movie Mean Girls, Mamma Mia!, Dear John, and Letters to Juliet. She's really pretty right? She's really well in acting, too. And her smile is so adorable! She's so admirable! ♥*

I promise I'll review this pretty lady in this bloggie. Hehe. If I have time okay? :\

I know I shouldn't be crying right now

Hey! Guess what?

E.X.A.M week IS O.V.E.R

whoa! I feel really great. Not because I did it well but just a happy feeling that finally the hell week is over... Thank God!
I guess I'll post some photos of my scores here. Well I don't promise it because I think I'll forget to take some photos. Blah!

I feel really down these days. Little problems are tackling me. Trouble with teacher, parents, assignments, and others. Let's ask God to give me more power to walk on my days *praying* Amin!

Okay, see you on next post! ::)

It isn't TGIF. It's TGIToday.

Hai. Today is August 10th. This day is really blissful!! My dear friend, Patricia is celebrating her birthday. Congrats dear!!!! Wish you all the best ya. All your wishes come true as soon as possible. Always be on God's way. Hehe. So we made some surprise for her. Actually me and tasa already planned to do our slides in her house. We already knew that Tuesday is her birthday but we pretend like we forget or didn't know. Hahaha. Then me, Yossie, Tasya, and Laura went together to Patri's house. She thought I was the only one who came there but then I kinda force her to go out bcoz she was really lazy to come out from the tv room :p

Then SURPRISE!!!! We threw her flours. LOL. Actually we planned to threw some eggs, but Yossie said no because of... well forget it. I've forgot. She already took a bath that morning so she had to take a bath again. Poor you!! :p



While she was bathing, we prepared our 'cake birthday' for her. Hehe it was the little one, thought. We didn't have money. But don't look by the price! Look by the sincerity, kay? We bought a muffin(:p), then put a candle on it. We decorated it with some mini ice cream, the name is mini-concerto. Then when she got dressed, we hid and then surprise again!!!!! She blew the candle and made a wish.

And beside, my crush, commented on my photo. Which one? It's a secret. No need to know.


WHOAAA I ♥ TODAY!!!!


.xxxxxo.

Just ignore. I'm being labille.

Life is so unfair. They let the beauty get all they want. The attention, the love, the protection, they got all things easily. It seems like they're really doing their life well without having any burden. And the duck like me? Oh well, do I need to explain here? My life is kind of embarrassing. I regret most of all things I've done in my life. HAHAHAHAHA. Let's laugh. This is funny, right?

I envy them. They don't even give a shit to their tasks at school, assignments, and all the bla-bla-yawn-things at school. But me?! Oh well, I really give a damn to school. I worry a lot about my score, my image(wtf?-_-), my paper, and all mothafacka things. Do you know why? Maybe it's because SCHOOL IS THE ONLY THING I COULD BE, AT LEAST, GOOD AT. Uhhhh. Poor me. I have no talent at all so I should focus to my school-_- I wonder how things will go if I have a spectacular talent, like playing the piano, or dancing, or maybe singing, or good at one kind of sport. Hahaha... Why do I dream too much? Come on-_____- I'm just an average girl, right? With boring life (well, not really boring. My life gets really suck when I'm at home-_-, but sometimes friends could cheer me up a bit). HAAAAAHHH. I wanna have a talent that at least I could be proud of. I don't wanna be just another girl in school that anyone underestimates.

Hm............. I wanna have a life like in a novel. Meeting the one you love, living in a sweet love story or having really good friends, or maybe meeting a riding-horse-prince. Why can't I have a life like that? Why is this reality so cruel? Cruel life!!!! I hate you for showing me the life I don't wanna live in. :(

Hula

*narinari* *gulingguling* *pingsan* *mati*

LOH? NO. No. I'm still alive baby B)

Okay okay. I'm sorry for my irresponsibility, dear ehm readers. Haha. I haven't fill this bwlowg with posting for about, ehmmm maybe a month. I'm too lazy, not in the mood and blablabla...
Yawn...
So many stories to tell. I even can't decide which story should I post here. H0h0.

Kaaaaay, first I wanna tell you that I pass. Yeah!!! I mean I'm no longer a Junior High School student. I'm unoficially a Senior High School student. Aye aye *gulingguling* *narihulahula* *jogetjoget*.

Thanks God I graduate with good scores. Just FYI, as you read my previous post, I didn't use any 'joki'. LOL. This is really from what I know, all the answers were answered by me. No cheating, no asking to friends. Got it? GOOD!

Okay, any reader got twitter here? Just follow mine okay?

Hehe, I'm confused.. What should I post more? Hm... Lemme think. Okay I wanna introduce one of my favorite boys here...
Jeng jeng jenggg..

Ah-_-" I regret it. Okay so I'll just post the prove of the graduation. Ohohoho.

ngik!

buahahaha. UN finally finished. Actually it has already finished on the 1st April. wgwgw.
but I'm too lazy to tell yaa reader. Okay I know, no one reads this blog. Poor me. aha!

so so so, don't ask me about the UN. it was easy, not that easy. Not the one that you can do with closed eyes. Nonono! But well, not as hard as the examination on my dearyyy school. and Thank God yuhu!

hm, but I AM really dissapointed with the Education Department and all institutions that were involved in this UN. CACAD ! :p well, let's just not talk about it okay? I feel soooooo sooo soooo disguised with it.

haha.

let's just talk about other topic. But don't have any idea. wow
I guess I must say goodbye noww. Dah :*

What I get from UN : Dengan adanya UN, populasi orang salah yang nyolot itu makin bertambah. Waspadalah! Waspadalah! :p

You let me down... for a while

Seems like the world is giving me the hardest trials in my life, you know.
Things are not settled down. I get my things back to normal but the other things ruin. Gooshhhh, really don't understand how this world works.
Jiahaha, in other hands those useless words above means that : I'm down. Yeah, for some reasons that I can't and don't wanna explain here. Tehee.

But when I'm down, I know that God always has His ways to cheer me by sending friends to me. hehe. They don't entertain me, because they don't know that I'm that down. I just shared this problem to them. Haha. Yes. And other ways I cheer myself back is by watching youtube video. Yihaaa. SNSD never fails to amuse and entertain me. Yes... I love them. HAHHA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TGbwL8kSpEk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7mPqycQ0tQ
Hahah. Those songs and videos, I'm sure, are not supposed to make the watchers laugh. But hahah. I laugh you know. They're so funny. The way they dance hahah. And the choreography too. LOL.

Oke so now goodbye. I have to get get get getttt back to this world. Er?? Whatever