Don't laugh

Setiap orang pasti punya mimpi kan. Hihi, termasuk aku jugalah pasti. Mentel mungkin kedengarannya ya. Hahhahaha. Tapi gak salah juga kalo punya angan-angan kan.

Nyambung ke post sebelumnya juga sih ini. Terakhir kan aku post kl aku abis nonton film Wall Street : Money Never Sleeps. Dan di film itu aku liat pasar saham atau apalah namanya. Keren. Aku pengen kerja kayak gini. Kalo yang udah nonton pasti ngertilah. Yang kerjanya jual-jual saham gitu. Hecticnya di kantor itu kalo harga saham naik-turun. Kerja di sana itu pasti selalu hectic dan gak mudah. Aku gak tahu aku nilai darimana, tapi yang pasti kesan yang kudapat dari film itu, kalo kerja 'begituan' keren.

Hwehe. Cetek kali ya. Pengen kerja kayak gitu hanya karena berembel-embel keren. Itupun keren dari sudut pandang kita aja. Tapi selain dari faktor itu, sebelumnya aku juga udah berniat kian pengen kerja di bidang ekonomi gitu. Pls!!! Don't!!! Laugh!!!! After!!! Reading!!! This!!! Ini semua terinspirasi dari Sri Mulyani. Oh yeah! That madam! That cool madam! Gila ya.

Beliau ditawarin jadi manajer di Bank Dunia. Apa gak mantap kali itu. Dia itu cewe, hm, dianggap lemah dan dari Indonesia. Negeri yang dianggap sebelah mata sama negeri-negeri seberang sana karena perkembangan negara kita yang jalan di tempat mulu. Dalam hati, kapanlah aku bisa kayak gitu... Ck. Mimpi mungkin ya... Tapi segala sesuatu yang ingin dicapai kan diawali dari mimpi dulu. Jadi sah la ya aku mimpi bisa kayak dia? Satu hal lain yang aku suka dari dia itu sikap dia yang gak bisa didikte dan rasa gak takutnya sama orang yang di atasnya selama dia bertindak benar. Whew. Meskipun yaah, banyak berita miring tentang Madam Sri Mulyani, tapi she's really still one of my ultimate idols.
Back to topic tentang mimpi dan bermimpi, aku sering mimpi (berharap sih sebenernya) punya wardrobe isinya baju-baju yang ada di tumblr ato weheartit.com. Yang punya tumblr ato yang sering buka weheartit.com pasti ngertilah. Yang ga punya ato ga pernah buka? Buka sekarang!! Ayo cepat!! :p Maksudnya yang in gitulah, yang lagi ngetrend. Apalagi vintage thingiesnya. Beuh. Tiap liat pasti pengen punya.

Kayak gambar yang di bawah ini. Cewe mana coba yang ga pengen punya barang-barang semacam ini di wardrobe-nya?
Yaaa... Namanya juga cewe. Pasti pengen selalu keliatan cantik, menarik kan. Cewe mana yang ga pengen keliatan cantik, apalagi di depan gebetan. Huahahaha. Begetar tangan ngetiknya. Tapi kalo aku sendiri sih, lebih ke kepuasan diri. Kalo liat barang-barang keren di wardrobe itu rasanya puas, bangga, apalah namanya. Tapi ya namanya mimpi, ya tetep mimpi kalo ga diwujudin pake tindakan.

Istilahnya kalo disingkat kaya gini:
Mimpi -> punya wardrobe isinya baju-baju kewl
Tindakan -> -
Kenyataan -> sampai jaman jebot juga ga pakal keisi tuh wardrobe sama baju-baju begituan.

Semua mimpi yang kita punya itu harus diwujudkan dengan tindakan. Kalo berharap sama keajaiban atau mengharap dari Tuhan aja tanpa bekerja kan sama aja bohong, ya gak? Apalagi kalo ngandalin magic. Hahahha. Ya apapun mimpi kita, itu pasti bakal bisa diwujudkan. Se-silly apapun. Se-bego apapun. Se-gila apapun. Karena hal-hal yang besar itu gak jarang berawal dari hal-hal yang dianggap orang silly, gila, gak penting, buang-buang waktu, dll.

Aku sendiri sih boleh dibilang agak munafik ngepost ginian. Karena aku sendiri termasuk kategori orang yang paling malas mewujudkan mimpi. Karena takut. Karena malu. Karena pengecut. Yeah, you name it. Tapi dengan ngepost ginian, paling ga ada cambuk ato motivasi untuk ngeraih kan? Ya berdoa ajalah untuk yang ngepost ini hmmm (berdoa dimulai.... berdoa selesai).

Wets, tindakan yang kita lakukan untuk meraih mimpi itu juga harus dibarengi dengan doa ke Tuhan juga tapinya. Tanpa Tuhan, semuanya menjadi mungkin. Bersama Tuhan, everything is possible! Yeah.

Gitu deh. Sesuai judul entri, don't laugh. I know this really sounds weird, but somehow I just want to share something. And wish me tons of luck, too. I made a list of 101 things I have to do before I get into 16. Yes, I'm turning sixteen this year on September 19th. Whew, I'm such an oldiiiiieeee X(

Wish us luck with our dreams. Keep pursuing them coz I know everyone can!! ;)

Yeah. Still haven't got this so cool bag. UUUURRRRGGGH. In desperate need of bag-like-this X(

First, first, first!!!! My deepest condolence goes for Japan. Oh my God, the tsunami is really horrible. It blows up almost anything. Wow. Japan is one of those developed countries and they are really aware of this issue, this kind of thing. They've built very strong building which is already prepared for this kind of thing, the earthquake thing. But still. The nature is really expressing its anger, maybe? Just by seeing the video on tv, I know that it is really horrible. Really.. I hope the best for all Japanese.

I have this one week holiday. Say yeay!!!! The twelfth graders are having their UAS. Hope the best for them. Hm, I'm so excited yet confused. What should I do in this holiday. I've thought many cool things to do, like baking, swimming, watching movies with friends, buying bags. And then reality strikes. I don't have that much time. Hah. Bimbel here, les there. My schedule and my friends' schedule crash, you know. We can't find the time to do all these cool things together. Beside, I think none of us want to 'sacrifice' our tight activities. Heh.

So I guess I'll just spend my time with laptop and dvds! I'm just going to be online for the whole week I guess. So booorrrriiiinnnnnnggggg. You know, I sometimes secretly wish I had that kind of life where I could hang out with my friends, holding shop bags, laughing so hard, taking pictures, whatever. You name them. That girly thing routines we often see in movies. It's just... cute. I don't know.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I've watched like so many movies recently. Yeah, that many until I have no feeling to collect any of those movies that I've listed. But....... Wall Street : Money Never Sleeps is a great one.

The tense feeling, the romantic, the drama, and the rare vocabularies there were kinda driving me mad. Hehe. The end is quite predictable, though. But the casts are totally cool. Michael Douglas, Carrey Mulligan, Shia LaBeouf are really awesome. I really love the couple. Perfect for each other. Heheee... And after watching the movie, I really feel like being economic is totally cool. I mean, the idea of growing career in economy is really into me. Whether to become a broker, an expert, an accountant or whatever, I really want to become one of those people. It's interesting what I watch in movie. The tense feeling people have in stock market. It's just... wow.

Yeah, I guess that's it.
"Money's the bitch that never sleeps – and she's jealous" - Wall Street 2"

Lesson learned.

Flat day. Kinda good actually. I behave like what a normal girl does. Well, the thing is I've made such a hard decision. I have to choose between attending so-called-family party or competing in a debate. I really love to join the competition. Since I found the last one is quite enjoyable. I really love to! But in other hand, I have to attend this party. Because I have to. I want to! Gah, life is all about choices. Why can't I divide my body into some parts so that I could attend both of this important events. Anyway I finally choose to attend the party on the 5th. This won't happen twice. Beside, if I attend these both, I can't focus on both of them. It will be a mess, maybe. Just hope for the best.

Wew, I really want to do some shopping. Whatever kind of shopping. I want to have new clothes, pants, shoes, nail-polish, dvds, blabla. I know this is being greedy not grateful or whatever. But these days are just so tiring. Exams are definitely over but tasks aren't. They are always everywhere. Teachers give us tons of presentation tasks. Hahhhh.

Sometimes I don't really like being myself. For I demand perfection too much. I want everything I do, I have, to be flawless, and exactly, yes exactly, as I want. This is being too arrogant right? I can't just help it. That's why sometimes I'd rather do a group task myself than have someone do it. Because I'm afraid it will not be as exactly as I want.
I remember thinking these lacey socks sucked a lot when I was in elementary school. My mom used to make me use this to church and to school (rarely of course, it's forbidden actually). I used to think that these things are awful and I was ashamed of wearing them.

And I remember thinking that this kind of collar was so uncool. Like it was so awful and I didn't want to have it.

But now? Hell. I want these items so much. I really love to have some lacey socks or this kind of cute collar. Why regrets always come late? I used to think that good things are just things which are becoming trend but it turned out to be wrong. I remember I didn't really like something vintage back then. But now? I'm so in love with all vintage pictures, especially that vintage fashion things. But I have no guts so wear them, even worse, I don't know where to buy that kind of things.

What I'm trying to say is, don't say that you dislike something so bad that you don't want to have or whatever the verb, in your life. Sometimes, things happen in the opposite way. I'm not saying that I never do this. I often. I can't seem to realize that this kind of thing happens in life. We don't always get what we want. God gives what we really need. And sometimes, what we think is good for us, is not. And I'm telling this as well, more like a thought, some kind of sharing to you who read this, and to me too. Please don't let the regrets come to us. It always sucks, believe me.

First day first

The first day of March! Ah, quite sad, disappointing. I even cried today. I cried so hard yet so quiet until my eyes got swollen. They were really red and it was even hard to blink. But now they are quite okay.

Today is also my first day of PMS this month. That's why I'm being soooo emotional. I felt broken.
All I can do is just disappointing, making people around me feel sad. Why can't I make someone be happy? Am I that bad? I'm just never good enough for anyone.

I can't go on this month like this. And I don't want the rest of the days in this month to be like this, all gloomy and sad!! I gotta wake up, cheer myself up. I have to survive through this month.

Today is Justin Beaver's birthday. Yeah, that other girls' idol. Tell him I say happy birthday. He must be feeling so glad to have me congratulate him. It's an honor you know. wkwkwk

AND FYI, MY Ron's having his birthday today! Happy birthday dear!! Wish you the very best. Keep being funny ;;;)

Hm, back to topic. I'm gonna be strong and I promise (really, I mean this) to fill this blog like every week. Yes, this blog has to live up and rise. Ha. Whatever. Guess this is it. Good bye!!